Life Update 2020

Hello there my people… I’m sorry I’ve been completely away from here. I hope you’re doing fine. These are some tough times, hang in there, May God help you through this.

I have been working on my art, my work front (professional) and also learning & improving on creating illustrations. This is my new joy lately especially when I have no me-time almost everyday, this is my easy escape to just doodle & draw away without anyone sneaking on my vibe. My creativity doesn’t do well when I’m interrupted or my space is intruded. I prefer having no one around me when I lose myself in my flow process of either deep writing or painting. It’s not happening !

Thanks to the lockdowns. (Being very sarcastic here). But grateful anyway for God’s still wonderful to me.

Please check my latest work on :

Instagram : @lea_artista and @leee.vibes

Trust me, you won’t regret it. God bless you. Take care. I will return to this, when I feel I’m in a better space to dedicate more time to this. Please don’t forget me completely.

God forgives.

If you remember the incident where Jesus saves a woman from being stoned to death for her sin had caught light,
you should know God forgives , even those that feel unworthy.
And His mercy surpasses every judgement.
For everyone is a sinner and humanely prone to commit mistakes, except God who is alone without sin.
Big or small your sin/mistake will not be used against you if you repent/turn/learn.

While a crime is unforgivable, sin is not.
Know the difference.
Find it in you to forgive yourself & people when you find it extremely difficult.
Find it in you to accept your wrongs & take charge to better yourself.
Find it in you to believe in Him all the time.
For HE is not only good, but Amazing all the time.

It is alright.

She was once that person who could love unconditionally, 

she could forgive without being asked for fogiveness ,

she could hear all unspoken wishes, and she’d try to give you her best self even when you wouldn’t deserve it.

You’d be annoyed with her care, cause it made you guilty, because you knew deep down , she was the angel you envied. 

She could take away your darkness, give you her light, Even though it was killing her, 

she’d do it without spite, and you knew she was just too much, much more then you could ever want.

So as you always do, you’d hurt her, leave her troubled,

never once bother to reply to her worried words,

yet each day she would wait for your return,

hope for a change , because she was smitten.

Until your coldness, chilled her soul,

you played along as she walked on burning coals,

It didn’t bother you, to see the sorrow in her depths,

all you wanted was what you thought was best.

And so when you left.

She didn’t just die her natural death,

but she ripped herself to shreds,

and let time help her rebuild herself,

now the likes of you 

cannot ever seek refuge in her living remains.

#10 Finding Me

Ages back she said this one thing 

“You are too dramatic.”

and it still bothers me like a thorn beneath my feet.

And I want to make peace.

I don’t really know in what context she said it.

If being overly emotional about things is being dramatic  , then I don’t know how to be the normal version you’d prefer. So I’ll stick to being dramatic.

I am pretty sure there are people like me who have such an atomic composition where we are just born sensitive, and I’m one of those that will be in tears for a stupid emotional movie even if that’s among a 100 people in a theatre, pretty much why I avoid sad movies.

Ask me if I would prefer any disney movie or action movies like Batman or Spiderman or Ironman or series like Sherlock Homes, or  Once upon a time, or TVD or even Horror movies (no one should scream in my ears)…. I’m your buddy to enjoy a marathon of them with or without popcorn.

If this will be reason for you to get a chance to call me childish, then  Hey …I am that.

If caring and loving blindly and selflessly  was me being fake, then ,ouch, I’m sorry, it took me so long, but I , now , don’t invest my emotions and faith in just any person.

If my care of messaging was an issue of frustration and nagging, then its great , now I don’t really bother texting or calling anyone.

If you could ignore my presence , to be with people that make you look cool, then , Thanks again, I’m making space for people who can appreciate my presence.
I assure you ,

when I am silent , it is my voice that you shall miss,

when I am not the one motivating , it is my words that will create a void,

when I will have buried all that I wrapped,

my presence will never be yours to cherish.

Because when you couldn’t value what I was,

then you don’t get to watch who I become.
Thank you for the blessons,

I can now so relate to me.

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Major life alterations happen when you have more disappointments from people you invest in.

Everyone realises this in time, that it’s best to expect the least from people you naturally expect the most.
But Hey… they are the major #Blessons … Appreciate it.

Take life as it comes.
and start belonging to your soul.
#haveablessedweek

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#confessions (P.S. Probably the last of Finding me series. )