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Reborn to Life!!

For all those still struggling to breathe and just live without dreading the worst, let me tell you … “the torture won’t last long. It will be over before you know it. But if you still haven’t caught your sails and changed your directions, then life will. There will be this moment when you will feel like your dead, or you’ve lost the battle. The moment you will finally give up of holding onto whatever that you are enduring. The moment when you don’t have to agree or disagree with your heart and mind. Because they both are in sync again. The moment when you are REBORN. You are awakened. You have just restarted your life engine.  11008325_782718461815568_908617588_n And Oh! what a joy indeed this is. No longer silence will depress you. No longer will you be enslaved to agony. no longer will you compromise on your soul’s happiness. It doesn’t matter what they say : very often you will hear- “Look at you, you have changed. ”  I wouldn’t want to ponder in what sense they say it. Because I know “ I HAVE CHANGED”. A change that touched me like a ray of light. and now I manifest and ask the universe to be kind – and it does. It makes me wanna glow and hold on to the light within me. I love this change. All I want to do now is sing:

I am my sunshine, my only sunshine

I can be happy , when the skies are grey..

You’ll never know dear   – how much I love me,

Oh you can’t take my sunshine away.

yes, you can’t take my sunshine away!”

When you are certain of what you resemble to your own inner self, when you have peace and tranquillity within. When you are in control of what you think and what you feel, When there are no “ifs” any-more to worry about. You have achieved something great and wonderful. What do you think that is?? You have achieved a fine and unique vision for your life. You know what has been and you know that whatever shall be before you , you shall be fine. No storm lasts longer than the time it needs to pass. Everything never is stuck. Its all in motion. Whether we like it or not “Moving forward with time” is how life is. images Rewinding or fast-forwarding life has never been an option. Living in an anti-clock wise timed world isn’t reality. The past is a historic encyclopaedia naturally present like a micro-chip in our brain. Refer to it only when you wish to remember the best moments of your life , and fill your heart with gladness; or refer in-case you need a quick re-understanding of a life lesson learnt. Refer not to it- to wrong your future or compromise with your present. When you have a faith -i.e; strong and encouraging you to live life with a smile, your spirit is in well-being. The very knowledge of what was unbearable, strengthens you further and rejuvenates your entire being . This feeling of being full of life, a breath of sunshine, with smiles for all times, peace and patience in abundance – where living life is like a blessing, waiting for the good is like knowing seasons change and its always wonderful, giving yourself a chance and accepting the way you are without the need of the acceptance of the other. When you are able to “ACCEPT yourself regardless of whatever happened, what will happen or what is happening, and you believe and know that GOD (the universe) has your back. ” You can be anything you wish to be so long you know that it is the best in the vision of the Holy divinity. It needs to be in sync to the things you attract. This is law of attraction in force. Ask and believe you will receive what you ask for, and it will so happen. quote-freedom-is-a-noble-thing-great-happiness-does-freedom-bring-all-solace-to-a-man-it-gives-he-john-barbour-209167 The journey from teenage to adolescence is like a trap full of life lessons. Everyone gets caught in the tangled mess, those who survive have learnt to catch their sails, those who fall prey learn to destroy the sails but very often life gives chances to rebuild what’s broken , rekindle the flame that the storms extinguished, revive your near-dead spirit, let your life engine roar back to life and there you are.. on a journey of living a meaningful life. And when you become all wise, you realise time runs out of hand. And sometimes you wish it would be a little slower, but in vain will that ever happen. So we gotta dash along faster, get hold of what we need and not what we desire and chase the sun and befriend time. Rest whilst we can, find solace in the smaller bits of happiness. Live and enjoy and let your sparkle spread over the horizon. Shine like a light-beacon. Radiate joy through time. It is said:

“Success is failure recycled. Life is death Reborn.”

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The mighty pause

DEAR  ME,

It’s been a very long time indeed. I haven’t been myself in this period- I’ll refer to as “the pause of my life.”

It had been a Philippians-4-6-7whirlpool of riotic feelings and pessimistic visions for as long as it lasted.

I am truly glad it’s over. The most difficult time in it all was for me to realise and accept that I had the key to shut it all once and for good. But I took my own time drilling me into an ocean of  desolation and grumpiness.

I took time feeling unworthy, shattered, lost, Carl-Jung-Quote-Even-a-happy-life-cannotand seeing failures and dark pits at every horizon.

They kept telling me ” this ain’t you, wake up. I learnt to be brave from you. I learnt to accept change from you. I learnt to be optimistic from you.  You can’t be this negative. Stop inflicting self pity and torture.”

The words rang deep. But all I felt was hollow. It felt unreal, did I really mean all that? Did I really be someone who I am not now? How did I change? How do I change back? Where do I find the key I misplaced?

Questions and questions.. Never ending ordeal of pessimistic notions.

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So many “Cannots, may nots, Will not, have not, not enough,…. ”

Oh! God save me, It felt like someone was ripping my soul before me to shreds and I stood there dumb, shakened, absorbed in the ruthless moment of misery.

It felt like someone inside me wanted to scream but I just couldn’t break free. I didn’t know how, nor when, nor what.

face-your-own-shaddow-quote-picture-good-life-quotes-pics-600x495It’s just a moment that was all that I needed to snap out of this nightmare.

What a horrifying nightmare indeed!

There’s alot this pause taught me.

Analysing the situation. Analysing my life, me.

Accepting that I can control  the thoughts that  govern my life.  That I will see the good in the bad. That I will be an optimist in the most undesired life situations. That I can go beyond this phase of negativity and lunge into the heaven of good positive vibes.

Things that we lose are things that we dont deserve. Things that we get are beautiful blessons ( blessings+ lessons).

13027247Sometimes it is so difficult to forgive, when you are not asked to forgive. Sometimes it’s so difficult to forget what you forgive. And Sometimes it is so difficult to accept the wrongs you’ve done and to move on. Yet in time, we do it all naturally. Do not force yourself, what has to happen will find a way gradually.

Life never promised that the canvas would remain colourless. When there are colours of warmt and liveliness, everyone feels the joy, but when the canvas gets splayed with dark spots, not everyone is able to appreciate the hidden beauty in it.

Not everyone is able to see the better picture before us.

It takes time to see through what we don’t want to see.

It takes time to accept what we are not ready to.

And it takes time to appreciate what we accept.

There’s a hell lot of difference when we say, we forgive from our heart and keep no grudges, no regrets, no remorse, no crudeness, no hatred. The question is what or whom do we forgive?

The deed and the person are two differentiable things.

When you forgive the deed, you have forgiven the person. You have forgiven yourself. And so to rest you have laid your negative emotions. You have compassion towards you and your fellow beings. You won’t run or escape or ignore what is so tangible and before your eyes. You can face anything, when you have the peace within. This peace gives strength, hope, faith and courage to be more resilient and more welcoming to the endless difficult phases of life.

And when you forgive the person without forgiving the deed. You will never be at peace. You will never be able to be compassionate with yourself.

To reach out to your soul, you need to be at peace- peace that stills away all that is unbalanced and let’s you walk through the doorway to meet your own-inner-self. Only then you feel relaxed and calm.

You need to succumb to no evil pressures but to God ( any Positive source of energy) alone.

You need to be in oneness, with the image of your soul. Only through compassion you can see the reflection of your soul in the acts of your human form.

(what I meant by “Deed” : Deed is that act or moment or notion that you find unforgivable, or that disturbs you internally, or makes you lose your sense of judging reality)

“TAKE IT EASY, BUT DON’T TAKE IT LIGHT.” – these words my brother said to me will always be with me.

Negativity of your thoughts and people takes us nowhere but into worse negative situations..

But positivity will take us a long way, its a slow but the best antidote for a long term life gain..

I failed in my efforts to get my goal, the goal I always wanted. But now because of this pause I am suddenly not so sure, if it still is what I want. I will take my time to find a way in or a way out.

But for the time that I lost, I can’t use the time that I have in wailing and sniffing about it. I need to restucture my way of life, so I know That I will never have to worry about unstable roots again. I need to focus on growing and learning to bloom in spring, to provide shade in summer, to give warmth every winter, to reach out to the sun, to be a shelter to those in need, to absorb the negativity around and give away positive vibes, to plant a tree of hope and self-reliance in everyone who walks by me.

I need to never forget to be ever so grateful, for the arms that reached out to me, the smiles that encouraged me, the love that helped me out a mess I created. Thank you.

And the best thing that the pause gave me is the experience of God. That he never forsakes. That it’s okay to fall, but it’s not okay  to not try to rise after the fall. That I am His Child, born to be victorious. And I have a spirit of life and peace that sets me free from all bondages of evil, sin and darkness.

And here I am resurfacing  from the depths of the unwanted sea of pessimism.

I am the writer of my life, and I will write it till the end.

I will change the course of my ship, when I have to, even if I’m not ready.

I will enjoy the nasty jerks and mild swings of every tide.

I will build my life into something that I will always love.

And I will appreciate the fact that at all times I HAVE ENOUGH.

I will live a life of gratitude.

Burst bubbles – are Lessons learn’t

Time to break some bubbles. Has this ever happened to you? somethings that once were so wonderful , now have left a sour taste in your mouth? How is it that the “once upon a time right thing” , suddenly goes all wrong? It’s like someone just burst your bubble. And you don’t quite like it , maybe because its alil rough. But guess what?

BRAVOO!!! You’re finally awake… and out of a dreadful dream.

There comes a time for most of us where we ponder about our past. How was it? And what all happened in there! And where have we reached … and where are we to go? Aaah! ….Too many questions. Now that I was saying past, there’s gonna be tons of regrets , grudges, bad stressful moments ,and so on and so forth. That’s the negative part of it. If we look on the positive side.. then there are a million more blessings and beautiful moments that have stored in them a lot of our pride, laughs, smiles , and all those goody things along the line.

We can’t toss these two sides of our past, both are part of the same coin.

There’s always gonna be some moments when we will be totally happy or awfully sad. Whether it’s the past, present or future… there are certain things we need to consider in life:

1] If you are a person who tries to reach out to people, help them live life better. REMEMBER: Whilst helping, help yourself too. I don’t mean “be selfish”. What I mean is:

“DO NOT DEGRADE YOURSELF in the process of UPGRADING your fellow beings.”

2] Learn to say NO. There are times when it is so completely difficult to say “NO”. But come-on, it’s a human right we need to exercise when needed. Just say it. “No, I’m fine with what I have.” “No, I don’t want it.” “No, I have too much on my plate already.” “No. I can’t help you.( because right now I am busy helping myself.)” “No , It’s not me that’s changed , but my vision.” A simple “No” can help you a long way. It will help you not be over-burdened. It will help you operate a healthy lifestyle where people will not take you for granted. It will give you an opportunity to work best with what all you have. Efficiency and peace you will achieve.

Just a “NO” , will remind some the importance of your presence. This “NO” will help remind you, of your lost sense of existence.

3] Never try to open closed doors. I’am sure we all as kids, have had situations- when our parents told us not to do a certain thing, but out of curiosity, we still pay no attention to the instructions and do the untold. Et voila , there comes MR.TROUBLE smiling evilly as always. We need to realise and pay attention closely to what our elders say, because they say out of experience. May not always be right, but if you think logically most of it will be right. Ignore the superstitions though. I’m sure we know to differentiate.

Well, Some doors are meant to be closed. Don’t try acting too smart, wearing a cloak of fake strength and getting all “SUPERMAN-ish”…. the power thing works in movies. In real, we are humans and we gotta deal with things the best way we can to cope better.

So, superman stuff wont work here. But if you still wish to be the nosey lil cat, go ahead and try opening the shut doors. Let me warn you, there’s more trouble you’re inviting than just a pinch because:

YOU WILL FIND THE REASON WHY IT IS MEANT TO BE SHUT FOR GOOD.

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4] Do not over-think My dear, we’ve got one life. And even if some chunks of it ,so far, have been bad, atleast some of it has been good. DO not over-blow your brain. It needs “no sort of mental abuse”. Go with the flow. Live life. You will lose alot of things. You will gain alot more. Lessons to be learnt. Friends to be earned. Memories to be made. Optimism- don’t let it fade.

It is a torture to dwell in negativity, depressive thoughts and lost hope. No-one promised life would be a bed of lilies. But yes, many say “It’s a WALK TO REMEMBER.” Indeed it is. People come and go. Things happen. Changes occur every now and than. And this is how it will always be. we can’t cling on to anything. The world is more of temporary stuff. And let’s not forget, we are not born to live forever, but to die blissfully. Let us as well live and taste everything we are offered and what we grab.

If we fret for all we lost, then there’s no end to the agony. But if we let it just be, and move on to see the blooms in our life. There’s a possibility for many rainbows to see.

5] Live with HOPE. And IN FAITH. Hope is the incentive that motivates us to live and keep walking to see the morrows. It may be a wish, a dream … just anything.. -that keeps you going.. Just like faith. Faith is the power to trust the unknown and believe that there’s something better even in the worst. We all know what HOPE and FAITH together can do. They are like Alladin’s magic carpet. You just gotta believe , breathe and hold on to it. Because it leads you somewhere when you stand on cross-roads .

6] LET GO. IMG_155555I’m sure we all have certain grudges , mistakes and some wrong decisions for which we may have-to pay a price our whole life. I am certain we all have done enough to repair and redesign these situations. But it all just went wrong and out of control. Okay. SO WHAT? It happened. Its gone. There’s nothing a tear shed can do- to undo it, to wipe it off our burdened shoulders. There’s nothing feeling sorrier will do. But all this will only keep you mentally unstable. You maybe perfectly normal to the world. But deep within you know there’s so much of compressed emotions. So much of frustrations. So much of unhealthy thoughts.

It is okay. SAY IT. FEEL it. FORGIVE. FORGET. At least TRY. MOVE ON. CHUCK IT.

DONT MAKE YOURSELF MISERABLE. That’s worse. GIVE YOURSELF a chance to heal, get over it, and breathe freely some air of relief.

Sleep at night not caring a damn of any messy grudges.

We need to remember that :  we do have a choice to choose the thoughts that could govern us. So let them be healthy, fresh, good and not at all part of the leftovers of yesterday. Each morning you wake, remember how good it is to feel “ALIVE”, breathing in the fresh morning sunshine, and starting a new day with a renewed spirit.

7] Be Self- sufficient. It is only when we depend on others, we sometimes face situations when we wish we’d rather not.

Expectations are not always proportionate to the acts of reality.

I don’t mean have no friends, be a loner or anything like that. What I mean here is-

Even if tomorrow you feel that you need someone, and no-one turns up beside you, you still have it in you to overpower the negativity and say and believe: “I am enough to win this battle.”

Dreaming is fine. But when you need to be realistic: Don’t waste precious time sitting to imagine, but be practical and come up with witty actions. Keep you mind on your shoulders and not your heart.

8] Be close to your POWER HOUSE. You need it all the Time.

For me its my GOD. It could be any source that could fill  you with immense strength, power, self confidence, faith, hope, understanding, wisdom , et cetera. By power-house I mean. The source on which you can depend blindly and know it will never fail you. The source that can keep the positive flame always alight and burning in you. The source that gives you boundless inspiration to LIVE to the fullest, LAUGH at all chaos and LOVE without a doubt.

   IMG_3623185376606Dear friends, Life is like the whispering wind. It blows through the meadows of happiness, over the tides of difficulty . Life is in you and around you. It is so very beautiful . Giving us opportunities to be awakened to renew ourselves every new day. Each day is a blessing to understand “what Life is this?”. That keeps you spellbound and awed in all its wonder.

Stay blest and happy.

The Unknown

Ever felt being lost in a whirlwind of emotions? Being swept away by storms? Feeling this void deep within? Feeling this INDESCRIBABLE emotion whilst letting go of almost everything? This feeling of uncertainty.. the feeling of standing raw and ripped and bared to the flames of the unknown.

3540305242_logo THE UNKNOWN .. what is it? How is it? It creates anxiety.. It creates expectations.. It creates hopefulness and also doubts..

The void brings out an outburst of welcomed and most unwelcomed of all emotions. The mixture of positivity and negativity. And all your left with is to wonder which one shall reign?

I’m in a dilemma.. trying to figure out which battlefield I’m standing on? what am I fighting against? What is all this about?

Its like your suddenly whacked and thrown off your pendulum. You lose your balance and you just keep falling without a landing. And whilst you fall , there’s this torturous wait to know the unknown, to face fears, to realize there’s no choice available here.

Sometimes its beyond our understanding to figure out the deep underlying meaning beneath all the hazy- crazy- messy life.

There are those tough rough hard times where you need to wear a cloak of pretense and show the world that you’re “perfectly fine, not afraid, not confused, not falling apart.” But more than the world, these are the times when you pretend the most with your own-self. You pretend so much and get so habituated that there comes a time when the cloak will become a crucial part of you and no longer be used as a prop.

These are the times when once you’re hit by a ton of bricks, you get all so pessimistic that there’s more of this… Et voila.. there it is , the walls collapsing on you, doors closing on you. The life you created suddenly- just like the sand is gnawed by the waves of the sea- just rips apart. When you get all negative, there’s no limit to what extent of negativity you can reach that can pull you off the cliff you hang on, and take you drowning deep into the unwelcomed ocean of pessimism. And all that happens whilst your trapped in there, is more because of this parasite in your mind , body and soul. The parasite that flicks off any small spark of positivity or hope or courage or anything that could help you out. It makes you believe there’s no way out, when there is. It makes you accept that you cannot break free through the walls threatening and looming over you. You feel diminished by absolute negativity that you begin to see in almost everything. And you begin to accept that this is how it should be and you are fine. Well! You are NOT.

You are thrown out your comfy zone. Now … now.. this is yet another trial.. And you need to use the correct switches available to break out the cuffs and chains that stagnate your growth, that lead you not to positivity.

It’s a matter of choices we need to make. And sometimes we need to be harsher than the harsh. We need to PUSH when being pulled with equal force. We need to realise that the leech or the parasite can be crushed.

Life gives us a fair amount of choices and options. Most that it offers always comes with a switch that we can use to our likings. But many a times we choose to be purposefully unaware. But there are the other  times when you’re not given a choice but there’s something else working for you- unfavourable yet in favour of you- not so likeable yet what is best for you. You can call it any name you want- “Karma”.. “Fate”.. “Destiny” .. “Universe and its energy” … “GOD”..

So long you accept that there’s some energy around you fiddling with your life, that it helps you fix the puzzle or throws at you yet another one. You’ll be able to vaguely see and imagine a bigger picture of what all this is leading you to. It’s a step at a time. Small bits falling together.

Where’s the beauty if life had to be comfy and cozy and nicy-dicy all the time? Where’s the exhilarating adventure without another turn, twist or a toss?

Where’s the fun without fears , provocation, storms and THE UNKNOWN?

The unknown is better. Knowing everything wouldn’t help us in anyway. Not knowing helps uIMG_125690279402377s to master the art to KNOW.

The unknown is filled with blessons (blessings & lessons). Enjoy the ride with all the topsy turvy roads at your disposal.

Again I’d repeat …. “YOU CONTROL YOUR LIFE, Not the other way round. Yes , there is the inevitable, But the evitable will be based on the choices you make,”

Sometimes it’s all like MAKE-BELIEVE. There’s no other artist who will paint your life best for you. BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ULTIMATE UNIQUE ARTIST OF YOUR OWN . PAINT IT. LIVE IT . LOVE IT.

THERE IS A CHOICE even when you believe there isn’t. Find it.

That’s how I want my Canvas…

And when I see it turning grey,

I look around for brighter shades,

Not soon I find the red I want,

But I keep searching , not wanting the black to haunt.

 

As soon as I find the colour pots,

I want them all to mess the grey spots,

Hide the black, fill all gaps,

Re-design my life map.

 

Oh Canvas! Oh Canvas! I want you all bright.

But if you’d show me my life,

Shouldn’t you be alike?

 

And thus, I add back the grey,

and alil of black,

And there’s my canvas

with all colours intack.

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Take a step ahead.

Before you start I don’t have this and that.

Your tomorrow will never come.. You need to Stop complaining.. Stop looking for what is less and more and this and that..Stop thinking so much..
Just do it..

PAINT YOUR CANVAS JUST THE WAY YOU LOVE IT BEST.

… Remember you can’t buy the time that goes by..
Do something with your passion..

Create your opportunities rather than waiting for things to come your way or happen the way you want..

WAITING is wrong.. Your talent and capabilities are your weapon.

Be wise and use it.

Inspiration is a feeling that drives you to be a happy satisfied being.

We all need it. It adds friction or should I say fluidity to our movements in life.

Life needs to be lived in an artistic way. Live in the colours, flow in your passion, strike out and design and keep redesigning till you see the picture your mind weaves.

Our palettes are always so full, yet we complain for shades we desire not once giving a thought to what is there is actually what we deserve. We let it dry. And then we wail.

Why?

Why is it tough to appreciate what is around us, in us and within our reach?

We know we shouldn’t be looking at shut doors but we still fail to see the doors that are open and slowly closing without our knowledge.

We know what is right and what is wrong.

We know it. But the problem is WE DON’T ACT. We don’t take a step. We are too damn busy trying to figure out the meaning of our neighbour’s canvas rather than glancing at our own.

No-one will solve your problems for you. Not even GOD. Because you are given them, to learn, to grow, to embrace your fears, to become more than what you are.

Accept your palette and paint your life. Sketch it, imagine it, feel it, dream it, and finally just get yourself together and throw your colours across. Design and keep redesigning your life canvas.

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Small things I feel that can give peace:

  • Don’t be a critic. But be an appreciator.
  • Don’t be proud. But be humble.
  • Don’t ask questions. But be an answer to the unanswered.
  • Don’t feel accomplished. But be hungry to grow above everything.
  • Don’t quit. Every end is a new beginning.
  • Don’t feel sorry. But learn to never repeat a mistake.
  • Don’t hesitate. But speak politely.
  • Don’t just hear. Listen.
  • Don’t expect. But be cautious.
  • Don’t imprison yourself. But always find a way to set free.
  • Don’t command obedience. But ignite the flame of inspiration.

I can go on. But the ultimate key to peace is GOD– the other name for Eternal love.

HE can help you design the most exquisite canvas.

Fear Can’t Control “ME”

I’m nervous, I’m scared,

What should I do?

All I can see is red!

Should I run? Should I face?

Should I let my fear- me embrace?

Must I swallow it down? with a frown I think…

Will it matter? If I ran?

But what if I choose to hold firm? will I earn any grand?

What do I lose? What shall I gain?

Chaotic thoughts! Leave no grudges down this lane.

Fear is something that lives within each one of us. It may be in the form of insecurity, fear of loneliness, fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of betrayal, fear of loss, fear of all negativity turning into reality, fear of feeling unwanted, fear of darkness, fear of the harshness of truth, fear of seeing you own reflections, fear of the mask you imagine people wear, fear of death, fear of heartbreak, fear of having no reasons to smile or laugh or love or be happy……. fear is something that many can hide beneath their brave facades but it is something that never leaves us , no matter how much we boast about conquering it.

NEVER FEAR- FEAR ITSELF.

It’s there, like a shadow. Face the sun, and it will fall past you.

Everything is in our hands. How we conquer it? How we try facing it? How we believe it can’t possess us without our permission!

We have the ability to fear our fears but what’s more sensible is accepting the ability to refuse adamantly to give in to these fears that shadow our path of light with darkness.

We all are like the sun, with so much light to brighten our life and also that of all around. We have it within us. The power to shine. The power to be a lighthouse that can glow even when the lights low.

We have in us the ability to do everything that can revive us, rejuvenate us , refresh us and rebuild us to out-grow our weaknesses, to overcome all grudges, to give in to the magic of positivity.

ecfffeee494042e13df8ff5d03199215Fear is more a mind game. It’s your mind. You can control. YOU CAN WIN. CHOOSE.

Believe:

YOU CAN. YOU WILL. YOU HAVE TO.

Practice the art of loving yourself with all the fears that run deep. Love yourself so much that you will fight to not give in to your fears. No nightmare will be worse than running away from your fears. Be passionate to live without anything holding you back. Keep moving forward.

Face them. Draw strength from the one thing that gives you boundless power. Remember that one thing in you weakest hours. Be humble to accept you are weak. But be courageous to overcome and out-shadow what you can put behind you. Build the shield around you that no sword can break.

Bravery is an act. Strength is the power. Your Will is the key.

Master the art of taming your fears.

Reach out within. All answers lie there. Deep buried under the linen of fear. Bring it forth. And lay beneath to rest in peace all that you can do better without .