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Realising what her soul needs.

Impending decisions

hurting her brain,

squeezing her heart,

shattered expectations,

endless rains,

ruining her fresh starts,

wishing and praying,

for ways unseen,

to know how to save 

what’s buried deep within ?

breaths so deep,

shudders of panic,

remorse and regrets,

hurting golden reflects,

slave of chosen thorns,

how to undo not being the hopeless pawn?

Conjure the courage,

hustle, you are brave,

hush the storms,

darling just salvage,

what screams for attention,

let it be sought,

for she is there amidst your wrongful retorts,

not lost, not broken, 

just awaiting,

for you to let the door be open,

and not leave her to rot.
_ L E A N D R A _

#leeevibes
#writersofinstagram #writersofinstagram

#writerden #writerdiaries

#writer #soulfood #soulpeace #write #wordporn #deeplove

#soullove #art #abstractart #abstractexpressionism #creativity #create #artistsoninstagram #poem

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Before I dive in my write up… let’s read this convo between me and my talented artist friend.

Kim : Check this out . ( A canvas of brilliant work of art )

Me: ***Mesmerised. And sad.***

Makes me want to be an artist. For life.

Kim : I know right!

Me: I wish… I so damn wish  I could go back in time and change fate.

(Inner voice screaming darling it’s never too late.)

Kim : Sometimes even I wish the same but then I remember all that we chose before, brings us to be what we are today.

Me: True that. If I dint have regrets, I’d not have a blog, I’d never know what writing meant to me.

“”””sigh”””

Ok, (deep breath) … It’s not too late to be an artist. Weirdly even today morning I ordered more artistic stuff. Seems like we don’t need a qualification to create. We can do that anywhere, anytime, because being an artist is being born to be one, no one can make you that if you don’t have that passion, that fire.

Kim : Oh Yes True! It’s the best thing we can give back of all that we’ve been given…. the experiences and the choices!

Me: You know, you give me hope when I lose mine. Thanks.

Kim : Same here darling, You’ve always inspired me. . even though we’re like not close friends , it feels I’ve known you like always! .. Thank Youuu!

Me: (I know the feeling… its because our spirits are sisters… )

Thank you too …

Other than that convo, I kinda revealed to my best friend whom I’ve been avoiding for days, because of her super powers of reading me, that I am not happy.

This past month I’ve been home, each day gave me a glimpse of who I am, who I truly am.

A girl with a spirit of an artist, writer and love for music. Passionate and peace loving.

Even though she had the right brain to tackle the tough life she always wanted, or so she thought, somehow she had let her true self be buried, she chose her brain over her heart,

and for the past 3 years it’s been her constant battle. She knew she wasn’t happy, always frustrated and tired of the stressful life.

Even though she worked smoothly in her work life, she knew this was not what she would love to do for life. And that reasoning was something she kept running from.

How can she undo the damage done, 3 years too late to realise,

or has life indeed given her a chance?

How will she face the questions and the society and her family?

When she thinks of the impending decisions,

she wonders if choosing is even a choice.

 

Working with all your heart, brings solace , a profound happiness.

But can she choose that ?

As much as her friend told her to grow a thick skin and face her demons.

Is it worth the risk ?

To see everyone looking at you like a failure, to see the crestfallen gaze of her parents,

She fumbles with the thoughts of broken expectations,

and fears not knowing the answer to –

how will she make them proud again ?

will this be enough ?

Painting is therapy #3

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When frustration and anger turns into something productive… It’s been long since we had a date… DEAR COLOURS , even though it was alil rusty, we made it .

I guess we need more time together….

Don’t you think ?
Oh right, next time I won’t come to you all grumpy.
Well even if I do……. I’m sure you’ll help me forget. You always do.
Since it was never a break up, just a break…. we do have a forever thing going right?
Atleast some relationships dont create rough patches in time.
Your’s always,

_ L E A N D R A _

(From Lizart diaries)
#longtimenosee #colours #paints #textures #pastels #funbusiness #goodforsoul #creativemodeon #artistdiaries #rustyworksofarts

Painting is therapy #2

At first I looked at her and thought damn the imperfections…

And then I looked at me and wondered “what is so perfect ?”

And it came back

Not a blow

But reality.

If I’m perfectly fine with my imperfect self,

Why couldn’t I let her be too ?

My very thought of seeing her with my lowest vision snatched away her lil chance at smiling.

Darling I’m sorry for being harsh,

Can you smile for me the next time we meet ?
_ L E A N D R A _

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#illustrations dont need to be perfect.

#art #creativemodeon #imperfection is art

And #art is peace.

Painting is therapy #1

Something about textures,

Something about paints,

Something about creating something totally insane,

Something that the soul lusts for,

Something so soothing.

Something that let’s you embark on a thrilling journey, full of wonder.

It just feels good to forget 

And let my palette be my undoing.

(Yea…. That’s by me … )

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Fear Can’t Control “ME”

I’m nervous, I’m scared,

What should I do?

All I can see is red!

Should I run? Should I face?

Should I let my fear- me embrace?

Must I swallow it down? with a frown I think…

Will it matter? If I ran?

But what if I choose to hold firm? will I earn any grand?

What do I lose? What shall I gain?

Chaotic thoughts! Leave no grudges down this lane.

Fear is something that lives within each one of us. It may be in the form of insecurity, fear of loneliness, fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of betrayal, fear of loss, fear of all negativity turning into reality, fear of feeling unwanted, fear of darkness, fear of the harshness of truth, fear of seeing you own reflections, fear of the mask you imagine people wear, fear of death, fear of heartbreak, fear of having no reasons to smile or laugh or love or be happy……. fear is something that many can hide beneath their brave facades but it is something that never leaves us , no matter how much we boast about conquering it.

NEVER FEAR- FEAR ITSELF.

It’s there, like a shadow. Face the sun, and it will fall past you.

Everything is in our hands. How we conquer it? How we try facing it? How we believe it can’t possess us without our permission!

We have the ability to fear our fears but what’s more sensible is accepting the ability to refuse adamantly to give in to these fears that shadow our path of light with darkness.

We all are like the sun, with so much light to brighten our life and also that of all around. We have it within us. The power to shine. The power to be a lighthouse that can glow even when the lights low.

We have in us the ability to do everything that can revive us, rejuvenate us , refresh us and rebuild us to out-grow our weaknesses, to overcome all grudges, to give in to the magic of positivity.

ecfffeee494042e13df8ff5d03199215Fear is more a mind game. It’s your mind. You can control. YOU CAN WIN. CHOOSE.

Believe:

YOU CAN. YOU WILL. YOU HAVE TO.

Practice the art of loving yourself with all the fears that run deep. Love yourself so much that you will fight to not give in to your fears. No nightmare will be worse than running away from your fears. Be passionate to live without anything holding you back. Keep moving forward.

Face them. Draw strength from the one thing that gives you boundless power. Remember that one thing in you weakest hours. Be humble to accept you are weak. But be courageous to overcome and out-shadow what you can put behind you. Build the shield around you that no sword can break.

Bravery is an act. Strength is the power. Your Will is the key.

Master the art of taming your fears.

Reach out within. All answers lie there. Deep buried under the linen of fear. Bring it forth. And lay beneath to rest in peace all that you can do better without .