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Let’s begin to heal.

Dear friend,

Sometimes the regrets turn out to be the blessings. Because the “rough ways”- meant my God was moulding me for better. Let’s accept the goodness of His Holiness. Let’s love despite the pain of not feeling it in return.

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It takes time to move past a thing that hurt you, broke you, changed you. It takes courage to smile and give away smiles.

Only a brave soul can still be good even after being destroyed in spirit. Be good anyway. Because bravery without goodness, is like honey without sweetness.

They say , ” if you have a good soul, no matter how many trials and tests come your way, no matter, how often you lose hope and faith, no matter how much you feel that life is harsh- your spirit will find that in God alone it can thrive through any hurdle in life.”

Our God is the everlasting fountain of love, courage, divinity, strength, fortitude, peace, happiness and eternal joy.”

No spirit will live long if it knows not to bow before the Most High.

Look up to Him. He will give you the purpose you need when you feel lost. Ask Him, He will answer. Reach out to Him, and He will lead you. 

What once WAS, was meant to be. It was THEN. It isn’t NOW. What now is, is also meant to be. But what now is , could be a tomorrow for all eternity.

Today for you, my friend, I pray that His Holiness may sprinkle His love enveloping you, guarding you, encouraging you, strengthening you and leading you on the path where you find contentment and peace.

May you always have a gratuituos spirit filled with joy. May every day you live be filled with peace and laughter. May your steps never fumble on the right path. May you feel what God wants you to, and learn what God is teaching you. Open up and let him be your comforter.

Live life giving away smiles, because believe me you will find many more in return.

Amen.

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May be

May be I’m slow,  may be I’m not…
May be I’ll do it,  may be I won’t..
May be it’s not gonna get easy,  may be it will..
May be I’m not me,  may be in time I’ll be..
How do I know,  what do I want?
For when I look for what I want,
I forget what I need.
I may be selfish,  lost in greed
How do I stop,  and be humble indeed?
May be it hurts to be like this,  may be it’s a blessing not to be at ease!
May be I’ll wake up someday,  and not merely dream,
May be I’ll  laugh at it,  not within scream.
May be I’ll find what gives me peace, 
May be I won’t mind this harsh life tease?
May be it will make sense given time,
May be I’ll  stop crying lost time is a crime.
May be I’ll look at the sun and let its light fill me in..
May be I’ll crave this darkness and feel right within.
Someday may be I’ll say I made it through,
May be I’ll have those around no matter how many or few..
May be I won’t simply live but thrive,
May be I’ll  have my happy life.
Not that now it’s worse,  it’s not just yet right,
It will someday I know be better than bright.
I smile as the “may be’s” overcome me,
And I vow to not look at life dispassionately.
Life they say is short,  but is it truly that?
For all I feel its still longer then I did expect.
There’s alot I learnt, and still am learning,
May be it’s best to have some anxiety and plunge into a new adventure, after every turning.
May be the what ifs,  and what nots can get me trapped,
But how will I know I can fly,  if I dont let my wings stretch and flap?
May be what’s bitter is sometimes good,
May be I would love walking in the rain without a hood .

The mighty pause

DEAR  ME,

It’s been a very long time indeed. I haven’t been myself in this period- I’ll refer to as “the pause of my life.”

It had been a Philippians-4-6-7whirlpool of riotic feelings and pessimistic visions for as long as it lasted.

I am truly glad it’s over. The most difficult time in it all was for me to realise and accept that I had the key to shut it all once and for good. But I took my own time drilling me into an ocean of  desolation and grumpiness.

I took time feeling unworthy, shattered, lost, Carl-Jung-Quote-Even-a-happy-life-cannotand seeing failures and dark pits at every horizon.

They kept telling me ” this ain’t you, wake up. I learnt to be brave from you. I learnt to accept change from you. I learnt to be optimistic from you.  You can’t be this negative. Stop inflicting self pity and torture.”

The words rang deep. But all I felt was hollow. It felt unreal, did I really mean all that? Did I really be someone who I am not now? How did I change? How do I change back? Where do I find the key I misplaced?

Questions and questions.. Never ending ordeal of pessimistic notions.

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So many “Cannots, may nots, Will not, have not, not enough,…. ”

Oh! God save me, It felt like someone was ripping my soul before me to shreds and I stood there dumb, shakened, absorbed in the ruthless moment of misery.

It felt like someone inside me wanted to scream but I just couldn’t break free. I didn’t know how, nor when, nor what.

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What a horrifying nightmare indeed!

There’s alot this pause taught me.

Analysing the situation. Analysing my life, me.

Accepting that I can control  the thoughts that  govern my life.  That I will see the good in the bad. That I will be an optimist in the most undesired life situations. That I can go beyond this phase of negativity and lunge into the heaven of good positive vibes.

Things that we lose are things that we dont deserve. Things that we get are beautiful blessons ( blessings+ lessons).

13027247Sometimes it is so difficult to forgive, when you are not asked to forgive. Sometimes it’s so difficult to forget what you forgive. And Sometimes it is so difficult to accept the wrongs you’ve done and to move on. Yet in time, we do it all naturally. Do not force yourself, what has to happen will find a way gradually.

Life never promised that the canvas would remain colourless. When there are colours of warmt and liveliness, everyone feels the joy, but when the canvas gets splayed with dark spots, not everyone is able to appreciate the hidden beauty in it.

Not everyone is able to see the better picture before us.

It takes time to see through what we don’t want to see.

It takes time to accept what we are not ready to.

And it takes time to appreciate what we accept.

There’s a hell lot of difference when we say, we forgive from our heart and keep no grudges, no regrets, no remorse, no crudeness, no hatred. The question is what or whom do we forgive?

The deed and the person are two differentiable things.

When you forgive the deed, you have forgiven the person. You have forgiven yourself. And so to rest you have laid your negative emotions. You have compassion towards you and your fellow beings. You won’t run or escape or ignore what is so tangible and before your eyes. You can face anything, when you have the peace within. This peace gives strength, hope, faith and courage to be more resilient and more welcoming to the endless difficult phases of life.

And when you forgive the person without forgiving the deed. You will never be at peace. You will never be able to be compassionate with yourself.

To reach out to your soul, you need to be at peace- peace that stills away all that is unbalanced and let’s you walk through the doorway to meet your own-inner-self. Only then you feel relaxed and calm.

You need to succumb to no evil pressures but to God ( any Positive source of energy) alone.

You need to be in oneness, with the image of your soul. Only through compassion you can see the reflection of your soul in the acts of your human form.

(what I meant by “Deed” : Deed is that act or moment or notion that you find unforgivable, or that disturbs you internally, or makes you lose your sense of judging reality)

“TAKE IT EASY, BUT DON’T TAKE IT LIGHT.” – these words my brother said to me will always be with me.

Negativity of your thoughts and people takes us nowhere but into worse negative situations..

But positivity will take us a long way, its a slow but the best antidote for a long term life gain..

I failed in my efforts to get my goal, the goal I always wanted. But now because of this pause I am suddenly not so sure, if it still is what I want. I will take my time to find a way in or a way out.

But for the time that I lost, I can’t use the time that I have in wailing and sniffing about it. I need to restucture my way of life, so I know That I will never have to worry about unstable roots again. I need to focus on growing and learning to bloom in spring, to provide shade in summer, to give warmth every winter, to reach out to the sun, to be a shelter to those in need, to absorb the negativity around and give away positive vibes, to plant a tree of hope and self-reliance in everyone who walks by me.

I need to never forget to be ever so grateful, for the arms that reached out to me, the smiles that encouraged me, the love that helped me out a mess I created. Thank you.

And the best thing that the pause gave me is the experience of God. That he never forsakes. That it’s okay to fall, but it’s not okay  to not try to rise after the fall. That I am His Child, born to be victorious. And I have a spirit of life and peace that sets me free from all bondages of evil, sin and darkness.

And here I am resurfacing  from the depths of the unwanted sea of pessimism.

I am the writer of my life, and I will write it till the end.

I will change the course of my ship, when I have to, even if I’m not ready.

I will enjoy the nasty jerks and mild swings of every tide.

I will build my life into something that I will always love.

And I will appreciate the fact that at all times I HAVE ENOUGH.

I will live a life of gratitude.

Burst bubbles – are Lessons learn’t

Time to break some bubbles. Has this ever happened to you? somethings that once were so wonderful , now have left a sour taste in your mouth? How is it that the “once upon a time right thing” , suddenly goes all wrong? It’s like someone just burst your bubble. And you don’t quite like it , maybe because its alil rough. But guess what?

BRAVOO!!! You’re finally awake… and out of a dreadful dream.

There comes a time for most of us where we ponder about our past. How was it? And what all happened in there! And where have we reached … and where are we to go? Aaah! ….Too many questions. Now that I was saying past, there’s gonna be tons of regrets , grudges, bad stressful moments ,and so on and so forth. That’s the negative part of it. If we look on the positive side.. then there are a million more blessings and beautiful moments that have stored in them a lot of our pride, laughs, smiles , and all those goody things along the line.

We can’t toss these two sides of our past, both are part of the same coin.

There’s always gonna be some moments when we will be totally happy or awfully sad. Whether it’s the past, present or future… there are certain things we need to consider in life:

1] If you are a person who tries to reach out to people, help them live life better. REMEMBER: Whilst helping, help yourself too. I don’t mean “be selfish”. What I mean is:

“DO NOT DEGRADE YOURSELF in the process of UPGRADING your fellow beings.”

2] Learn to say NO. There are times when it is so completely difficult to say “NO”. But come-on, it’s a human right we need to exercise when needed. Just say it. “No, I’m fine with what I have.” “No, I don’t want it.” “No, I have too much on my plate already.” “No. I can’t help you.( because right now I am busy helping myself.)” “No , It’s not me that’s changed , but my vision.” A simple “No” can help you a long way. It will help you not be over-burdened. It will help you operate a healthy lifestyle where people will not take you for granted. It will give you an opportunity to work best with what all you have. Efficiency and peace you will achieve.

Just a “NO” , will remind some the importance of your presence. This “NO” will help remind you, of your lost sense of existence.

3] Never try to open closed doors. I’am sure we all as kids, have had situations- when our parents told us not to do a certain thing, but out of curiosity, we still pay no attention to the instructions and do the untold. Et voila , there comes MR.TROUBLE smiling evilly as always. We need to realise and pay attention closely to what our elders say, because they say out of experience. May not always be right, but if you think logically most of it will be right. Ignore the superstitions though. I’m sure we know to differentiate.

Well, Some doors are meant to be closed. Don’t try acting too smart, wearing a cloak of fake strength and getting all “SUPERMAN-ish”…. the power thing works in movies. In real, we are humans and we gotta deal with things the best way we can to cope better.

So, superman stuff wont work here. But if you still wish to be the nosey lil cat, go ahead and try opening the shut doors. Let me warn you, there’s more trouble you’re inviting than just a pinch because:

YOU WILL FIND THE REASON WHY IT IS MEANT TO BE SHUT FOR GOOD.

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4] Do not over-think My dear, we’ve got one life. And even if some chunks of it ,so far, have been bad, atleast some of it has been good. DO not over-blow your brain. It needs “no sort of mental abuse”. Go with the flow. Live life. You will lose alot of things. You will gain alot more. Lessons to be learnt. Friends to be earned. Memories to be made. Optimism- don’t let it fade.

It is a torture to dwell in negativity, depressive thoughts and lost hope. No-one promised life would be a bed of lilies. But yes, many say “It’s a WALK TO REMEMBER.” Indeed it is. People come and go. Things happen. Changes occur every now and than. And this is how it will always be. we can’t cling on to anything. The world is more of temporary stuff. And let’s not forget, we are not born to live forever, but to die blissfully. Let us as well live and taste everything we are offered and what we grab.

If we fret for all we lost, then there’s no end to the agony. But if we let it just be, and move on to see the blooms in our life. There’s a possibility for many rainbows to see.

5] Live with HOPE. And IN FAITH. Hope is the incentive that motivates us to live and keep walking to see the morrows. It may be a wish, a dream … just anything.. -that keeps you going.. Just like faith. Faith is the power to trust the unknown and believe that there’s something better even in the worst. We all know what HOPE and FAITH together can do. They are like Alladin’s magic carpet. You just gotta believe , breathe and hold on to it. Because it leads you somewhere when you stand on cross-roads .

6] LET GO. IMG_155555I’m sure we all have certain grudges , mistakes and some wrong decisions for which we may have-to pay a price our whole life. I am certain we all have done enough to repair and redesign these situations. But it all just went wrong and out of control. Okay. SO WHAT? It happened. Its gone. There’s nothing a tear shed can do- to undo it, to wipe it off our burdened shoulders. There’s nothing feeling sorrier will do. But all this will only keep you mentally unstable. You maybe perfectly normal to the world. But deep within you know there’s so much of compressed emotions. So much of frustrations. So much of unhealthy thoughts.

It is okay. SAY IT. FEEL it. FORGIVE. FORGET. At least TRY. MOVE ON. CHUCK IT.

DONT MAKE YOURSELF MISERABLE. That’s worse. GIVE YOURSELF a chance to heal, get over it, and breathe freely some air of relief.

Sleep at night not caring a damn of any messy grudges.

We need to remember that :  we do have a choice to choose the thoughts that could govern us. So let them be healthy, fresh, good and not at all part of the leftovers of yesterday. Each morning you wake, remember how good it is to feel “ALIVE”, breathing in the fresh morning sunshine, and starting a new day with a renewed spirit.

7] Be Self- sufficient. It is only when we depend on others, we sometimes face situations when we wish we’d rather not.

Expectations are not always proportionate to the acts of reality.

I don’t mean have no friends, be a loner or anything like that. What I mean here is-

Even if tomorrow you feel that you need someone, and no-one turns up beside you, you still have it in you to overpower the negativity and say and believe: “I am enough to win this battle.”

Dreaming is fine. But when you need to be realistic: Don’t waste precious time sitting to imagine, but be practical and come up with witty actions. Keep you mind on your shoulders and not your heart.

8] Be close to your POWER HOUSE. You need it all the Time.

For me its my GOD. It could be any source that could fill  you with immense strength, power, self confidence, faith, hope, understanding, wisdom , et cetera. By power-house I mean. The source on which you can depend blindly and know it will never fail you. The source that can keep the positive flame always alight and burning in you. The source that gives you boundless inspiration to LIVE to the fullest, LAUGH at all chaos and LOVE without a doubt.

   IMG_3623185376606Dear friends, Life is like the whispering wind. It blows through the meadows of happiness, over the tides of difficulty . Life is in you and around you. It is so very beautiful . Giving us opportunities to be awakened to renew ourselves every new day. Each day is a blessing to understand “what Life is this?”. That keeps you spellbound and awed in all its wonder.

Stay blest and happy.

The Unknown

Ever felt being lost in a whirlwind of emotions? Being swept away by storms? Feeling this void deep within? Feeling this INDESCRIBABLE emotion whilst letting go of almost everything? This feeling of uncertainty.. the feeling of standing raw and ripped and bared to the flames of the unknown.

3540305242_logo THE UNKNOWN .. what is it? How is it? It creates anxiety.. It creates expectations.. It creates hopefulness and also doubts..

The void brings out an outburst of welcomed and most unwelcomed of all emotions. The mixture of positivity and negativity. And all your left with is to wonder which one shall reign?

I’m in a dilemma.. trying to figure out which battlefield I’m standing on? what am I fighting against? What is all this about?

Its like your suddenly whacked and thrown off your pendulum. You lose your balance and you just keep falling without a landing. And whilst you fall , there’s this torturous wait to know the unknown, to face fears, to realize there’s no choice available here.

Sometimes its beyond our understanding to figure out the deep underlying meaning beneath all the hazy- crazy- messy life.

There are those tough rough hard times where you need to wear a cloak of pretense and show the world that you’re “perfectly fine, not afraid, not confused, not falling apart.” But more than the world, these are the times when you pretend the most with your own-self. You pretend so much and get so habituated that there comes a time when the cloak will become a crucial part of you and no longer be used as a prop.

These are the times when once you’re hit by a ton of bricks, you get all so pessimistic that there’s more of this… Et voila.. there it is , the walls collapsing on you, doors closing on you. The life you created suddenly- just like the sand is gnawed by the waves of the sea- just rips apart. When you get all negative, there’s no limit to what extent of negativity you can reach that can pull you off the cliff you hang on, and take you drowning deep into the unwelcomed ocean of pessimism. And all that happens whilst your trapped in there, is more because of this parasite in your mind , body and soul. The parasite that flicks off any small spark of positivity or hope or courage or anything that could help you out. It makes you believe there’s no way out, when there is. It makes you accept that you cannot break free through the walls threatening and looming over you. You feel diminished by absolute negativity that you begin to see in almost everything. And you begin to accept that this is how it should be and you are fine. Well! You are NOT.

You are thrown out your comfy zone. Now … now.. this is yet another trial.. And you need to use the correct switches available to break out the cuffs and chains that stagnate your growth, that lead you not to positivity.

It’s a matter of choices we need to make. And sometimes we need to be harsher than the harsh. We need to PUSH when being pulled with equal force. We need to realise that the leech or the parasite can be crushed.

Life gives us a fair amount of choices and options. Most that it offers always comes with a switch that we can use to our likings. But many a times we choose to be purposefully unaware. But there are the other  times when you’re not given a choice but there’s something else working for you- unfavourable yet in favour of you- not so likeable yet what is best for you. You can call it any name you want- “Karma”.. “Fate”.. “Destiny” .. “Universe and its energy” … “GOD”..

So long you accept that there’s some energy around you fiddling with your life, that it helps you fix the puzzle or throws at you yet another one. You’ll be able to vaguely see and imagine a bigger picture of what all this is leading you to. It’s a step at a time. Small bits falling together.

Where’s the beauty if life had to be comfy and cozy and nicy-dicy all the time? Where’s the exhilarating adventure without another turn, twist or a toss?

Where’s the fun without fears , provocation, storms and THE UNKNOWN?

The unknown is better. Knowing everything wouldn’t help us in anyway. Not knowing helps uIMG_125690279402377s to master the art to KNOW.

The unknown is filled with blessons (blessings & lessons). Enjoy the ride with all the topsy turvy roads at your disposal.

Again I’d repeat …. “YOU CONTROL YOUR LIFE, Not the other way round. Yes , there is the inevitable, But the evitable will be based on the choices you make,”

Sometimes it’s all like MAKE-BELIEVE. There’s no other artist who will paint your life best for you. BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ULTIMATE UNIQUE ARTIST OF YOUR OWN . PAINT IT. LIVE IT . LOVE IT.

THERE IS A CHOICE even when you believe there isn’t. Find it.

WITIWIB

There’s this concept or mantra I learn’t from my boss.. Of being a WYSIWYG person “WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU GET”... Surely in some of my write-ups you’ll know that I’m more a person dwelling on thoughts and feelings..

So for me its my own concept along the similar lines .. Let me say..

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  I’m more a WITIWIB person..i.e; I believe:  “WHAT I THINK IS WHAT I BECOME.”

Hadn’t I come across WYSIWYG I’d not have identified me as a WITIWIB.

What is WITIWIB?

Since its something I conclude my personality as. Let me get a little theoretical.

The basic principle I’ve come to believe on my journey and all through my experience, so far, is that

“I AM THE PRODUCT OF MY THOUGHTS.”

I reflect on the past and realize that it is the energy of my thoughts that have helped or pushed me through all the situations that they have attracted.

Yes, ironical but true. Every thought releases some energy in the universe, let me be precise and say rather ‘around me’.

And these thoughts govern my life.

So the quality of my thoughts will be portrayed in the quality of my life.

If I’m optimistic, patient and a girl in her goody-two shoes, okay maybe not all the time! Then it’s fair enough my life is pretty comfortable.

If I’m a pessimist, indulging in self torture, bad stuff and everything in that pot, then complaining that my life’s unfair ? Is it even my right??

Everyone has their own mantras in life. We just need to discover which one suits us. I just found mine and honestly, it works best for me. What about you?

Introspect yourself. Listen to some optimistic experienced personalities. They have something to give you, teach you, every step along the way.

We learn so much, at every stage. It’s more of becoming human than being human.

It’s finding what helps you grow better, faster and also knowing what stagnates your growth.

As we learn and unlearn, we keep growing to becoming better and there’s this understanding that only experience can offer and no book can, sometimes.

So I’ll be trying to be a better WITIWIB, accepting and adapting and growing optimistic.

As it suggests- “WIT” – I think we possess a brain that can differentiate between positive and negative thoughts and also witty and unproductive or say abusive thoughts. What are you like? Have you thought about it?

WITIWIB can go a long way, framing your personality. Boosting your confidence and helping you challenge your being to strive to better yourself from every perspective.

So, finally it’s you making a choice.

Great you think, Great you become.

Good you think, Good you become.

Holy you think, Holy you become.

Evil you think, Evil you become.

Out of the box you think, And you’re definitely NOT TO SIT IN ONE.

Positive you think, An Optimist you become.

It all sums up to the very roots of being a WITIWIB:

WHAT YOU THINK, IS WHAT YOU BECOME.

So Choose to THINK extraordinary, raise your thoughts to an unbiased level, and control their direction.

Because if you want to become something, Then YOU DEFINITELY need to decide the train of your thoughts.

Use your Witty thoughts… weave your personality.