And Atlast I see the Light

“And Atlast I see the light, it’s like the fog has lifted
And atlast i see the light, its like the sky is new .  “

Ever since my friend mentioned this :
“We are so much like bulbs, overthinking can kill us”
I kept staring at one.

I watched it work smoothly, lighten the space around me.
And I watched it go nuts during a storm. On and off,
dancing to the tantrums of the currents.
And then just as suddenly it came alive,  it exploded.
That’s when I realised this :

Aren’t we exactly the same sometimes?
We work smoothly with all our energies when we have the same weird routines every day , life becomes so monotonous.

But when there’s a disturbance in the frequencies of our daily schedules like for instance a storm (problems) or unwanted changes in life, there’s too much resistance on our part and too much pressure in life.
And then if we dont give in, we break apart and cramble down into desolation.
And if we do give in, and move on casually, its ok for a while…but we fail to remember that problems will occur time and again.

Life is never monotonous. 

Our mind is a very complex part of our whole-self. It can be sectioned into various compartments. But I’ll go with three or rather two:
Emotional and Rational (psychological aspect)
And physical.
We do know that EMOTIONS, THOUGHTS and MOOD SWINGS are like the stubborn Triplets,  bonded together 

and hell! They can do a lot of damage, if you dont know how to control them.

What you THINK you FEEL, and how you feel you ACT.

If you can’t control your thoughts, then your emotions will be all over the place , your behaviour will be catastrophic and undesirable to you and those around.

So learn to control the triplets.  Think good, no pressure, no over thinking,  no negative vibes,
Stop if you feel drained, give yourself a break, 
Be with people who give you good vibes and help you relax,
Watch people who fascinate you,
Close your eyes and remember the one thing that made you smile today
Or yesterday.

Feel that joy, focus and let it slide into your emotinal being and your silly moody sister will be smiling and all bubbly.
Train the triplets to work a healthy way,  and do not let them 
Work you up into a ball of pessimism.

Physically,  there’s a lot we can do for our mind.
How? We all know the answer – exercise.

Some of us will be like “hah! That’s lame now.”
Trust me, even a nice long walk,  inhaling some fresh air,  can do wonders.
Have you ever reached a point where you are exhausted by your workout and your mind (Miss Thoughts) says “that’s it, no more. “???
What have you done then?
Your trainer will push you farther and force you to not give in. Think for your self :

What if you didn’t give in? What if you walked the extra mile? 
What if you can? 

Our mind is in resistance mode and it’s upto us now to make a choice.
If you do happen to walk further,there’s a moment of pain,  alil inner struggle , and slowly it fades away… And once you have finished walking that extra mile…
How do you feel? Isn’t it refreshing?  Like you did it? Isn’t breaking through your inner resistance a wonderful feeling? 

You feel really really good. You didn’t just work your body here, you did something for your mind too. I won’t get all scientific with the blood rush to your brain and stimulating cells of your body and a fluidity in your metabolism and all..
But I’ll just say,  you just helped a pulsating under pressure brain to relax and calm down, you gave your feelings a positive boost and inturn Miss moody will now be smiling….AGAIN… woww! seems like Miss moody gets to smile more and more..

Overthinking can be exhausting. Stop it.
Feelings can be pichy. Stop it.
Our behaviour can be cruel.  Stop it.
Stop one. You stop the three. 
Train one, you influence the three. 
Keep your mind relaxed, refreshed,  resistance free and full of positive good vibes.

Stay happy.  Live blissfully. Be grateful. 

Please Child don’t you wail!

Don’t let the devil bite, You just stand upright.

You are God’s child, be still and fight.

You got a victorious spirit, with your own hands your sky you lit.

Let God hold your sails, please child don’t you wail.

It’s ok.Breathe in and breathe out.

Stay calm, despite the chaos in your head so loud.

You are chosen, Do not be afraid.

With God you will never fail, please child don’t you wail.

Let it go- all the pain, the hurt, the sorrow.

God has plans for you, he knows your tomorrow .

You are wonderful , his own likeness and image.

He has his angels on your tail, please child don’t you wail.

Don’t panic. Don’t doubt .

He never forsakes, you are never left out.

You are his precious, you are his own.

He will give you the best nothing stale.

Please child don’t you wail.

Despite your sins, flaws and mistakes,  

He will always clean your slate.

You are important to him, he gave his only son for yoursake.

On you he will never bail, please child don’t you wail!!

published : St. Anne’s bulletin Dec 2016

Bitter-sweet moments.

  It’s only when you start working you realise how cruel the world can be!

“Do I have it in me to make it my own?”

Change What you can, move past what you can’t.

Simple rule.

ADAPT and get yourself tuned to the music of reality.

Had started this journey  with a goal in mind
Met people  so cruel, so unkind!
….not all was good, not all was bad….
Have so much to worry, so much to be sad..
I’d often  question,” where  did it all go?”
The fun, the frolic, those laughing rows.
It was all so merry, so peaceful ,  so light.
To have friends around you day and night.

Walking this alien road,
I see so much has changed.
Lines have grown  on my forehead. Oh what strains!
How much I wish  I could  go back in time,  and live some  more.
But this is reality.  No wonder  life’s  painfully  slow.

Why do I feel it a burden?
Can’t I make it a jolly ride?
If I have it in me! Time  will decide.

Alas! Too long have I forgotten  the goal I so wanted.
It’s time I get over these annoying  tangles, and see that my focus  doesn’t get tainted.

It’s still a journey. One I ought to live.
Let me learn to love it.
Let me be at ease.
I can. Can’t  I?
If I want to, won’t  I?
I will, will I not?

Move on,  past the things making me hold on to grudges.
I will atune myself  to the new music  of my reality.

Days tumble into night, and I wonder when will I get that break?

Always trying to make me feel lighter, no matter how much I get bit by snakes.

It’s not crude. It’s just the bitter side.

Sometimes life’s just a beautiful messy ride.

Lesson 2 – Acknowledge The Presence Within

My feet kept running from door to door

Tears gushing down evermore

and I still couldn’t answer the question haunting me , “Where do I go? “

My mind kept shouting ‘RUN … ESCAPE’

Would it feel better drowning in some lake?

and then I heard her scream ” STOP RUNNING PLEASE, AT LEAST FOR MY SAKE.”

Who do you think screamed?  there wasn’t anyone around, then?

Sometimes when you walk around and see people sing alone or talk to them-self , Do you find that weird? Do you think you never do that? Like your lost in your own world and your mom asks you to go get something from the grocery shop, and then you keep grumbling all way down there or you entertain yourself with a little speech??

Tsssk Tssssk .. now don’t say you never do that! There are definitely endless moments when you talk to yourself and sometimes you don’t even realize this.

SPEAK TO YOURSELF WHENEVER YOU WISH.

Its not called madness. It simply is – giving yourself a priority, ACKNOWLEDGING YOUR VERY PRESENCE.

TELL YOURSELF WHAT YOU FEEL! ASK YOURSELF WHAT YOU WANT?  indulge in a self talk. UNDERSTAND AND LISTEN TO YOUR INNER SPIRIT – YOUR SOUL. It has a voice- DO NOT SUPPRESS IT terming it as an act of madness.

When you die, you are no longer called by your name, they call you “BODY”-  ever been at a funeral? heard people talk? – “Yes they brought the body home……..”

UNDERSTAND THIS FACT.

NURTURE YOUR SOUL instead of bashing around loving your mortal being.

YOUR SOUL IS YOUR POWERHOUSE. Open yourself and welcome its presence , and you will never feel alone.

We are too busy dealing with life that we never realize that it is the soul that is actually in the battlefield.

DO NOT SUCCUMB TO your WEAKNESSES  and  NEVER MAKE YOUR SPIRIT-  YOUR WEAKNESS.

Feed it with love, courage and understanding  and you will never fear the wounds to your mortal being.

YOU HAVE IT IN YOU TO SMILE THROUGH THE DARKEST STORMS.

YOU HAVE IT IN YOU TO LIVE WITHOUT GIVING UP .

DEFEAT AND FAILURE SHOULD NEVER BE ENOUGH TO BREAK YOUR SPIRIT.

“THRIVE ON THIS SPIRIT AND LET IT THRIVE IN YOU.”

Lest in any occasion of falling, should you be afraid, remind yourself that :

“MY  SPIRIT  WILL  NEVER  BREAK even after FALLING  A  MILLION  TIMES, IT  WILL  ONLY  GROW  STRONGER!  CAUSE  MY  SPIRIT IS  NOT  OF  FEAR  BUT  OF  LIGHT!”