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Dear Future Husband #8

Love,

Today my mom dad complete 30years of togetherness. It feels surreal. This moment. I’m so overwhelmed.

Kinda listening to “perfect -Ed Sheeran” on repeat. And dreaming of us dancing to this.

This moment here , now, is perfect. Even though I prayed only and only for my parents today. 

I hoped that we share what they have someday.

They make each other not just look perfect but remain perfect. Touchwood. 

30 years is a remarkable journey don’t you think?

Being friends, husband and wife, daughter and son, daughter in law and son in law, sister in law and brother in law, godparents, aunt and uncle, and incredible parents.

Every part , they have been great .

Will we be like this ? As much as fear often grips me at not finding you or not finding this with you, I just know in this moment, that we shall. With God with us everything will be just perfect.

It’s a nice wait love. I get to write you letters, words that perhaps I might have not voiced had you been here now. But that doesn’t mean I do not want you to show up. Because I am waiting.

I , the person who lacks patience, is being patient waiting for you, and somehow this hope , in this moment is enough.

I already am feeling a zillion things each time I have a dreamy glimpse of a future, it’s like having a part of you near me.

Please find your way to me, letters are waiting to be read.

Your’s in God’s time,

Your future bride .

Dear Mom & Dad

As we thank God Almighty for your 30 beautiful years of togetherness, let’s recall the 7 years prior 30years where this journey actually began. 

For the first few initial years, you’ll might have had thoughts whether what you’ll had would last ? would it be a forever thing ? You’ll might have envisioned your lives, a family , might have spoken together about many such dreams. 

From initial doubts of a forever, to hope nearing your marriage, and to pure love as you’ll remained faithful to each other for 30 blest years, there might have been a few hardships , that now must have been a thing you could laugh about or forget, there might have been moments of sheer joy, and there might have been situations of confusions. But you’ll made it. All together with God. 

And that is remarkable. 30+7 wonderful years growing evermore in love and learning each other so thouroughly that no day is a day off from sharing your love through words or actions, whether it may simply be “Have you taken the medicine ?” “Switch off the T.V. and come to sleep.” “This is for dada and this is for you.” “Keep quiet. Let her be.” 

Even as you have your cute fights and made me and Row the referee. There was / is love underlying with everything you’ll do for each other.

Even those possessive glances and mocking jokes, the happy hugs, and the fun in wearing matching matching clothes.

I have , as a child and even now , watched your fairytale unfolding before me. 

And there is simply no other one on my top list but yours.

Not even Cinderella or Snow white or Beauty and the beast, could make me yearn for what you’ll have, what you’ll share.

For love like this is a journey towards eternity. 

For love like this is worth everything.

For love like this is a safe haven in harsh realities.

For love like this is pure bliss.

My best fairytale will always be you.

Someday I hope Row and me are just as blest as you’ll are to find a home in the person we marry, by God’s will and grace.

And I pray that your health – be evergreen, and so someday our kids (when they are born) get to witness the love you’ll share so they may, like us, want what you’ll have, because your love makes us want to be good and compassionate always. 

Love you both infinity. Love you’ll so much. Please forgive us the many times we wrong you and take you for granted. You’ll are our Home. You’ll are our safe Haven.

Happy 30 years of incredible togetherness .

God Bless you’ll, your love and your forever.

Your children always,

Rowan & Leandra.

Attraction Distraction Obsession Destruction.

It all starts with a few stares shared. Or that head rush where you feel like you’re high and you can’t stop taking your eyes off the specimen of your interest.

From a stupid crush to the strong pulls of attraction, which often turns into fascination, and upon alil fueled flirty conversations you are likely to become obsessed to either impress or charm or seek the attention of the much wanted distraction , so you can have a twist in your stagnant boring life.

As much as crushing is a good feeling, and it is nothing evil or such, it’s just human of us to feel the pulls of the universe around, whether from a person in our vicinity or any other such object ;

but being obsessed is just another thing. Obssession comes only when you feed your crush feeling with even more strong pulls and pushes of attraction. And very often if you are not cautious , such obssession slowly takes control of the way you think, and feel, it kinda posseses you, and all you crave is that good mushy feeling all the time, the attention, the tingly beats of your heart, the head rush, the smiles that you dont keep a check on while reading a message or talking or simply checking out the object you are slowly getting obsessed with.

Mind you, unhealthy obsessions act as a trigger of self destruction . You may not realize it, but you are uneasy and unsettled and over thinking in the absence of your crush. And that often steals your peace and makes you agitated.

Remember, not all crsuhes come with a tag of love, some are just for us to live at the moment and forget. Not all attractions should be fed for you to get obsessed. And not all obsessions should you let possess you, and destroy the lil peace you have.

Unknowingly as humans we fall trap to the push and pulls of the universe, and so be conscious and know what should be fed and what should be starved. When you become too agitated in the absence of something, it is best to maintain a distance, find a good distraction and keep your mind busy, slowly the agitation will fade into nothingness given proper time.

It is the same like addiction. You are so obsessed over a thing, your brain controls your feelings and makes you believe that that particular feeling is something you need, you just need it , and you can’t do otherwise. But that’s not true. Everyone can adapt to changes and getting over an unhealthy crush or obssesion or lost love, may act as a challenge for a moment, but it isn’t something that you need, you can get over it, given time and how you starve your brain and feelings of longing or false need.

Trust me. All your brain does in this starvation phase is  make you irritated and tempts you to give in, go ahead and indulge in your crush even when you dont really get the feelings or treatment you deserve in return. It makes you want to believe that it is completely ok. That may be what you thought you deserve is overstated, and you should settle for less.

NO! DO NOT SETTLE FOR LESS. NEVER EVER DO THAT TO YOURSELF.

You first treat yourself with respect, know that you deserve what you offer in total equality. Nothing less. More is an added bonus.

What attention and feelings you invest, if reciprocated in the same force you have pushed so the other pulls, then it’s quite likely that such an investment may develop into a good relationship.

But if the crises forthcoming is seen before hand, you see the symptoms of an unhealthy relationship, then stop. Get back to yourself and catch yourself before you fall into the pit you digged.

Desolation is not a nice place to live in. Being irritated and sad and having thoughts of “what’s wrong with me? Am I not good enough?” are self destroying.

You are good enough. You are enough . Accept yourself first and let no one ever make you doubt that Your totality lacks anything. You are complete and unique , not a half , not unloved. You are your own person. And your love for yourself should be on par with your respect for yourself.

Questioning what you lack is mocking your self esteem and saying you love and respect yourself but not really feeling it genuinely.
Crush blush hush.

Don’t overpull, when pushed.

No one makes you sad, if you dont let them.

Let it not stranggle your peace.

It’s not worth thinking about if it makes you self doubt.

You are worth much more then being let down.

You are enough , even when they fail to see.

You are your own, change at your will , not at the will of others.

Take it easy. Take it slow. Go with the flow.

Take care. I hope this acts as an eye opener.

Have a great day.

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Dear Future Husband #7

Hey love,

This will be my endless wishes when it comes to you.

I just want you to stand beside me,

holding my hand so proudly,

I just want to sing through the darkest nights,

knowing you’re right by my side.


I just want your arms to lead me on,

your brave chest for me to lean on,

I want you to be with me for the rest of my life ,

smiling forever knowing you’re mine.


And here as now I stand under this enormous sky,

missing you more daily, that’s not a lie,

awaiting for you makes my heart cry,

I’m dying daily you’ll never know why,

All that you ought to know is,

thinking of you, My love, my days pass by.


I wish you were here, sitting beside me,

staring at me, so I could loose myself into your stunning eyes,

I wish I could know, what you might feel about me,

a “No” from you will kill me alright!

I just wish I could know for sure you will be mine,

I just pray for you day and night.

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Thinking about you, knowing that you are out there somewhere  caught up with your life, hoping that you too are praying for me like I am for you. And waiting for God to lead us to each other. I am waiting for our story to begin.
Ironic, that I haven’t met you as yet, and I am missing this notion of your presence around already.
Take care love,

Your’s in God’s time ,

Your future Wife.

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Oh Crying Lanes.

​Sweet hopes, Sweet tears,

gushed down the stream of fears,

bitter smiles, happy pains,

Oh Crying lanes,

Oh Crying lanes.


It’s a winter’s game, am all insane,

I thought I had no more pain!

It was the day we somehow met,

there was no need to talk, no need to fret,

Oh Winter’s game, am trapped again.


The feel, the air, the twinkling stars,

My heart did a flip dance behind the rib bars,

fragrance of romance,

those christmassy laughs,

Oh the Winter’s game,

Oh Crying lanes,

Oh Crying lanes…


Why did the paradise collapse ?

When did all wishes become regrets ?

Oh Crying Lanes  don’t make me insane,

It’s a winter’s game, Oh what pain !


Waited for nothing,

I won’t wish again,

Why the bells chimed ?

So unfair, you weren’t there.


All memories got stained,

Oh Crying lanes,

Don’t remind me of the winter’s game,

All hurts, what pains !

I’m drained, Oh Crying lanes !




(This was written in dec 2012… when I was hung up over a stupid crush. … Oh Man! I whined so much.. It makes me laugh now, the over exaggerating me, .. Lol.. But nevertheless it was a good write up . Won’t you agree ?)

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Dear Future Husband #6

Heyyyy honeyyyy,

today I’m  happy, for no reason,…

so I have a poem for you….
Walk with me ,

because only when you do,

You’ll know I’m your sunshine 

for the darkest days,

and your joy on the brightest.


Walk with me,

Because sometimes I’m the fire you need to feel fuzzy,

because I’m the twinkling sparkle in the crazy valley.


Walk with me,

because even when I’m gloomy,

You’ll have the best to read,

& while I write, you could watch me in my groove,

and a tadbit of jazz will help lift my spirits.


So Honey just walk me,

because when Im chirpy,

I will make you dance,

and sing crazy,

I’ll write u all the letters when I whine,

and you could tease me as we dine.


Just walk with me


Your’s in God’s time ,

Your love forever.

. … L e a n d r a … .

Someday for you #DFH .
#sigh #summerfeels #colourfulvibes #poetically_yours #poeticmode #poems #words #leeevibes #bliss #romantic

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Dear Future Husband #5

Hey love,

I hope you are doing better than just fine.

I’m kinda chirpy today, might be a writeup I just read about love.

And that makes me want to write to you.

Since you aren’t around yet, what better than write you these letters which hopefully someday you might have the patience and love to read.

I want you to know that I might be as clueless as you or as understanding as you when it comes to the word love.

I want you to be able to open up to me about anything you wish for me to know, and trust me, I will be as understanding as I can. I will accept you with all your flaws and skeletons of the past, and I will hope you give me the same in return.

A chance to heal from wounds that sometimes still hurt, a chance to fall in love without the fear of being ruined , a chance to stay in love till death embraces me, a chance to the acceptance that I fear will never be mine.

I want to be madly in love with you someday, and I’ll want nothing lesser from you, because to love and stay in love is a promise of togetherness, and that needs two to tango to the rythmn of bliss.

I will never expect a bed of roses without thorns, but I will expect your hand to help me stand when I fall, and my arms will always be open to embrace you in our roughest patches.

I want to not hold back on the love I have, when I have you, because I assure you , I am able to love blindly, completely and totally. And I do know such love is consuming and passionate and toxic, but I also know that despite you having the key to toss me to my ashes, you will lead me to the best person I can ever be.

I see us Praying with Gospel music, singing like crazy lovesicks, dancing to relaxing music, laughing in the bright sunshine, and walking in comfortable soothing silence on a darkest twinkling night across the shore.

May be we could even paint bits of our home together, and with you probably cooking might be even more fun. I will wait for the feeling of butterflies in my stomach, my heart running miles and for sparks to fly. Because as much as I know these are words good in books, I still believe we can have it in our real life. And so even though I’m a dreamer here, I will not stop to visualize.

I’m sorry if I’m burdening you with a lot already, but  right now, I can’t help hoping to wake up to tomorrows like this.

See , now you know I’m a hopeless romantic.

Your’s in God’s time.

Your future wife.

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