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Total surrender.

If you recall some of Jesus’s last words on the cross,
1. “My God, my God , why have you forsaken me?”
Mathew 27:46 & Mark 15:34

2. Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” Luke 23:34

3.”Father, into your hands I commend my spirit.” Luke 23:46

4.”I am thirsty.” John 19:28

5.”It is finished.” John John 19:30

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Let’s reflect on the above scriptures.

1. Jesus knowing that the crucifixion was the last part of the journey in the plan of salvation, felt betrayed? Felt alone? Even when He is God (the Mystery of the Holy Trinity). Understand this, we will have our moments of weaknesses, even when we know God is with us, this journey is pre-planned. We will hit rock bottom sometimes, but it’s not the end, the pain could be excruciating & overwhelming. Don’t lose your faith.

2. He forgave everyone who betrayed him, who forsook him, who planned he’s execution. He forgave us even when we weren’t born, our sins against our Lord. He interceded for us in he’s last, such was/is his love for us.

3. The best lesson – total absolute surrender. The Lord of all surrendered to His Lordship- His Father, the Almighty.

4. Thirst for the life after – for the joining in celebration in Heaven, re-uniting with the Father.

5. Victory in the most tragic moment. He fulfilled the plan.

Stay close to the Lord. He makes all things beautiful.
You, life & your journey.

Don’t be a victim of cruelty.

Remember, you give away yourself when you only have the desire to indulge bashful deeds of prejudice.
For years, I wondered why I couldn’t fit in with some people, why I never felt a part, no matter what I did?

Why? Because one or two of them always had hurtful things to say, be it body shaming or something else, & never once did anyone stood up to them for me. Because all around they laughed, as I pretended it didn’t hurt all that much, but it did, more because those others found it funny.
Today I have all the clarity I need in life, when it comes to a tribe I can be with & includes none of you. .

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If you read this, you will feel this, you will remember those moments where I felt betrayed for accepting toxic behaviour, betrayed because I expected alil more kindness, deceived even when I tried to help.
And then, I couldn’t help much ? .
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You will remember that there were moments I went aloof.
And it’s this. I, unknowingly, began protecting what I could of what was not damaged of me yet.
So, I stood up for me & made peace with breaking free from you.
You don’t understand how much damage you do to a person with your words, because you can’t see the cracks & bruises you inflict.

Today, I have my peace and answers to the questions then. And let me tell you, I am finally alright with not having much friends, not trying to force me to fit in when I feel otherwise. I don’t need you, I never did. Not then, not now..
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I have a select few, who even if I meet after ages are still so closely bonded, I have no doubt I’ll be seeing them greying with me in the future.
I have faced many demons. And I have conquered. And I’ve tried to understand, why people are like they are. And day by day I learn something new. That everyone is healing from something or the other in ways they are discovering fit for themselves.
Stay blest.

Become accepting.

If there’s one thing I learnt from my past two workplaces is that I didn’t want anyone new joining there to feel unwelcomed.
I didn’t overdo it, trust me, but whenever I could I would try to make them feel less uncomfortable, not weird.

I very well remember my first days at the past workplaces, they didn’t know me, so yes there’s that stranger danger vibe, it takes time. But the aloofness initially was a tad bit disheartening. Like it’s not like I took a knife and went for their throats, the least expected was a smile. But all I saw was the staff murmuring together something something something about work and the newbie.

As much as everything and everyone grew on me in time, those two days I just had promised myself whenever there’s a new person recruited I would try my best to not make their first day their worst nightmare.
It’s not only about a workplace or some event or some other platform, try to make people comfortable when they around you if you sense that rigidness of mixing around, some people are shy, some people expect the worst and some are intimidated. Well there are some that be totally aloof, that’s fine, everyone is different.
If you can make some feel at ease to be themselves and make them feel accepted and not judged, do it. Be kind & accepting, because deep down everyone wants to be treated right, respectfully and cordially.
Most importantly be willing to listen and take advice from anyone and everyone, age and experience will not always credit your expertise, there’s always something to learn from everybody. Sometimes its children that teach adults that living life is more simple than the complicated scenario they think of.
Keep that pride, ego, superiority complex aside and just be human. Humanity is full of empathy, embrace it.

Parents

​YES I know how blest I am.

YES I know what wonderful parents I have,

Two people who make me feel like I have my God on earth with me through them,

Two people who make me believe

That TRUE LOVE EXISTS,

that compassion and love 

Are the most ultimate treasures one can ever receive.

That a house can be built on rocks,

But a home is made with a bonding of hearts,

That not having the same understandings and different thoughts, may result in fights of deep meaning, and may hurt either one, but at the end of it , nothing matters more than being with each other through times of variant phases.
That losing oneself to push the other to discover their  boundaries, is the biggest gain. 

That the rewards of sacrifices will not succumb to pain. 

That having each other, even if miles apart, is knowing that there are these arms that will always always open wide , to hold me close to their heart. 

Oh what joy it is to be blest with the utmost best ?

Ask me, for I know that my home is where my heart will always reside. . .with them.

-Leandra . R.
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Dear Future Husband #15

 Honey….

Yesterday was a rough day.

I wonder how was yours.

Yesterday I had not many words to fill a blank page, was way too drained and sad . And I wanted something nice to say.

I did hope this #illustration of us that was done yesterday, speaks to you someday.

Hahah! Please don’t mind me looking elsewhere & not at you😉😊…..

I love dancing, mostly ball room, and usually my bro is my perfect partner, but the times he’s not around, I miss dancing, so I avoid parties, maybe one of those possible places fate could help us meet. 

But since I’m gonna be sticking to my chair even when there’s crazy music, I don’t turn up to such parties.

Apart from dancing, my well wisher pointed out that it would be so wonderful to actually meet you someday and realize that you have indeed read all of my letters all along. 

But that’s just wishful thinking or would that be a wonderful possibility?

I know I will meet you love, even if this wait will be months or years, but when we are destined by the Almighty we shall meet.

It scares me you know, this dating thing, because I don’t want to invest in someone who’s not you. 

Because there’s alot at stake. Emotions, feelings, time, understanding, patience, compromise, sacrifices, prayers….. and so on.

I want to invest all that in you. Someday, when we click, and if you ask for my heart, I will gladly give it to you, because by then , I’ll know, you’ll be the key to help me rebuild and become even more of a woman who belongs to herself first.

The pressures of the society or even family, at times , makes me feel weird, will I be forced to choose ? And if I do, will that be you ?

How will I ever know , love ? There are so many doubts, so many fears.

I’ve been raised by such amazing parents who have never once fallen out of love, their love is the very strength that binds our family together.

Will our love be the ship on which we shall proudly sail towards eternities ?

They say the soul knows who it wants ? And since you shall be my soulmate someday, will your soul recognize mine ?

I wonder love. I only can wonder.

I leave my worries about you in the hands of our match maker.

For he knows, who’s heart I can cherish and who can treasure mine.

I hope and pray dearly beloved, that you are having the most amazing time of your life. May you think of me, as I think of you. 

Haven’t met, yet to meet. Isn’t that a beautiful mysterious  fact of our lives ?

I will wait, my love. I don’t urge you or God to let you come soon. I pray that when you turn up, I am ready to accept you and welcome you, from that day on for forever thereafter.

Stay blest. Stay safe for me. 

For He knows our time will be in His time.

Until next letter,

And until God plans our eternity,

Your favorite dancing partner to be,

Your love.

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Dear Future Husband #14

Hey love,

I was chatting with my friend, and she’s like where do I get these words from ? 

Words that I write for you …

Guess what I said ?

Romance hasn’t died in me , even though I’m happily single in the season of waiting . But it might just get over, since I’m pouring it all over here, so probably when you do turn up, my quota of romance might need some serious restocking. 😉

On a good note, I’m being formal I know, but it sounds crazier this way, haughty english style, I’ve been thinking. 

And me & thinking get along too damn well, and  totally out of proportion. 

When we do fall for each other, and we keep falling every day, more and more in love, I will be there to hold you, your hand, and squeeze it in reassurance when you need a boost if confidence. Love, I do not want to be your weakness, but if I am, then I’ll be honoured, but I will be proud to be your strength, and I hope we learn to be this rock of strength for each other.

I don’t see love just like strolling down the beach, getting all steamy and flirty and teasing and being totally love sick, but I see us being able to talk to each other, without the need to look at our phones every minute we are together, without the need of trying to hunt for topics to get rid of awkward silences, without the need of trying so hard to explain so either of us would understand, I see us smiling in comfortable silence, not needing too many words to understand , and respecting each other’s presence.

I know that relationships need work, and it’s not always a dream that would weave a web of magic in reality . We shall face all sorts of situations, where we might need to take decisions that might not sit well with either of us, I might be for it but you might not be and so on. 

But I want you to know , I will hold no grudge. I do not want regrets, but I will not stop you from chasing your dreams or building them, I will help you and encourage you and pray with you. But if it is something wrong for you, I will speak my mind aloud and let you know why.

I will expect the same from you love, correct me when I’m wrong. 

As much as a passion filled romance is thrilling and lovely, I know we will have ours too. But I would want ours to be such that would make some sigh and bless us, and not want to puke and tell us to stop.

You might even get a few letters from me, time and again once we do be with each other, but I assure you , I’m not gonna be the one to bombard my feed and yours with stories of Tom, Dick and Harry that spy on every moment of our life.

Here’s a scene I imagine, because I do see it happen to my parents quite often, they are still very possessive about each other, so there’s like a party we attend, and we are ignorant of the vibes we each give away. You trying to signal that I’m yours and me trying to ward off the attention you get by staking my claim , grabbing your hand, or even gnawing at it. 

Hahaha… It will be funny. Don’t you think ?

I will be a wee bit possessive of you and there will be times I might face jealousy, but I want you to know, that it will not be to cause you irritation, but to only try to soothe my endangered heart. Whilst I hope you will make me believe that we belong, like we are a match made in heaven, I would love to feel all that a journey with you will bring our way.

And from jealousy, to clashing thoughts, to decisions we dont agree together on, may we someday learn to love in our individual spirits to respect the space of each other, and accept at heart that no matter how different we may think or believe, we will live in harmony of our differences and imperfections.

Much love my dearest.

I pray My God takes good care of you,

Until He decides it’s  time for us to meet,

Your future rambling bride.

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Dear Future Husband #13

Love,

I am dramatically staring 

at time of less essence,

would you find me a fairy Godmother,

to take me to where you stand ?

Even glass slippers would do,

if you would send me a search troop !

to rescue me from the many walls I built.

Or would Aladdin rent me his genie

for my last wish ,

to take me to where time stands still?

Will there be an evil queen in our fairytale?

Will I be saved by gentle 7 dwarfs,

and be kissed to be waken from a sleeping spell?

No!

This won’t be our’s,

No fairy, No genie, No flying carpet,

No glass slippers, No sleeping spells,

No needles of poison, No apples to cause destruction,

No kiss of resurrection ,

No happily ever afters that are only dreams, No magic beans for second chances,

No evil queen, No conspiring step mothers,

No balls, No magic that books proclaim,

JUST YOU AND ME,

walking towards each other in this world of twitchy reality,

in a pattern of DIVINE INTERVENTION,

WE SHALL MEET,

and grow in Love 

in our walk towards forever to greet eternity,

With God’s will alone,

and heaps of blessings for the remainder of our journey.


Your’s in God’s precious time,

a girl without glass slippers, magic wands and pixie dust.
(Now honey, come find me, your only way to me is God.)

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