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Dear Future Husband #8

Love,

Today my mom dad complete 30years of togetherness. It feels surreal. This moment. I’m so overwhelmed.

Kinda listening to “perfect -Ed Sheeran” on repeat. And dreaming of us dancing to this.

This moment here , now, is perfect. Even though I prayed only and only for my parents today. 

I hoped that we share what they have someday.

They make each other not just look perfect but remain perfect. Touchwood. 

30 years is a remarkable journey don’t you think?

Being friends, husband and wife, daughter and son, daughter in law and son in law, sister in law and brother in law, godparents, aunt and uncle, and incredible parents.

Every part , they have been great .

Will we be like this ? As much as fear often grips me at not finding you or not finding this with you, I just know in this moment, that we shall. With God with us everything will be just perfect.

It’s a nice wait love. I get to write you letters, words that perhaps I might have not voiced had you been here now. But that doesn’t mean I do not want you to show up. Because I am waiting.

I , the person who lacks patience, is being patient waiting for you, and somehow this hope , in this moment is enough.

I already am feeling a zillion things each time I have a dreamy glimpse of a future, it’s like having a part of you near me.

Please find your way to me, letters are waiting to be read.

Your’s in God’s time,

Your future bride .

Hushed Winds

​Because most days are like home days,

no mood to glam,

no mood to slay,

Just bury myself in books,

colours, brushes and simply spray,

wear baggy clothes,

and sing my own musings and verses,

smile as my hands move across blank pages,

create something,

that I can’t think about,

write something my heart gushes without doubts,

take notes, and

listen to tell-tales of emotions.


May be because without the Cinders , Ella wouldn’t have been the Cinderella to her Prince ,

Maybe because without being grounded,

I wouldn’t test my wings,

And so, When I’ll know I’m ready,

I will let you watch me fly, 

and soar,

and smile.


Until then, I’m the hushed winds in your sky. .

.

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– L E A N D R A –
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Dear Future Husband #4

Hey hubs,

If you see me right now. You’ll probably be horrified. I’m fighting anxiety and stress when it’s blowing me crazy.

I’m terrified. And then I breathe and repeat in my head that “This too shall pass.”

Had you met me a few years back down the lane, you’d probably meet a total contrast of myself right now.

She was much more focused, happy, successful and going after a dream crazy girl. All organized and planning and being the meticulously brilliant.

She had a better impact on people she cared about .

I know things have gone downhill.

That girl , believe me , never ever failed.  She always aced.

Me now , is a victim to procrastination and self doubts. The first time I failed perhaps made a huge impact. The cycle is still on. And I can’t find a way to resurface. Everything seems to be just going haywire. I have had difficult experiences at work. Somehow they made me have far too many self doubts, especially my first work place experience, it did leave a massive scar.

Sometimes the things you need to let go,  perhaps you have let gone, aren’t the things you can ever easily forget. And so even when you blend in, it still makes you feel like your life’s missing the cream. And along with a zillion blessings, there will also be a dozen regrets.

And no matter how you try reframe your mind to function, until you find your inner peace back again, you can’t stop the inner rain . This is exactly how you drain your happiness and harness a void. And to fill it back, you crave for light and some magic beans like Jack trapped in soiled. Because that is what we crave – Hope- for a better tomorrow. A way out of a mess.

I keep having thoughts of not feeling like I have it in me. But I know I do. I can do this. If only i break out of this miserable phase.

I wish you were around so I could talk like this for real, and some how I could rely on your support mechanism to motivate me and help me get back to what I can achieve.

I hope I do it on my own though. I can’t wait for you to turn up, it might be too late to save me from my ruins then.

I’m an emotional wreck with a career block. Or do I have a career here as a writer and artist  ?

I’m still trying to figure out.

You know what hurt love ?

Is meeting the teachers who once had that pride in their eyes , that I secured a rank, a state rank at academics. But years later when I see them, they could see me struggling, and all I saw was pity.

That hurts.

Me feeling miserable is one thing, others who once were proud of your achievement looking down on you, is just another new feeling to deal with.

I want to so desperately get this phase over with.

I hope you are doing fine, unlike me.

If not I pray God help you too, because along the way I’ll need you to be my pillar.

And as I hush my fears, and breathe, asking Lord to give me courage, I want you to know , even though I’m struggling, I’m still brave.

I will fight this. Because the good thing is a reward that I’ll have, a motivating career perhaps, but the better thing is , Someday I’ll have you.

If I know something, is that, having someone to love and be loved, to share and be there, makes the tough rides feel alot better, alot more sweet and easy.

Take care love.

Come soon.

Your’s in God’s time,

Lea.

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Story of Tough Faith .

Let me tell you a story, once upon a time, there was a man , who had a lovely family, a wife that stood by him through all the ups and downs, a son who knew the struggle and wanted to help his father, and an ignorant daughter protected like a princess.

She never knew that they had days when the struggle was so tough, that even though there was a roof on their head, her father and mother wouldn’t know what new storms tomorrow had.

The only thing that kept him going was his children and his wife, because they were not his weakness but his life, his strength, the positive things to be grateful about in a never ending negative life.

And each day in this struggle he became this ardous, loving and hard working man.

Together with his wife he nourished his kids with invaluable priceless values and gifts. Gifts that only struggle could give.

Gifts of being grounded even when we rise above the hardships. Gifts of being happy with what they had. Gifts of enjoying small things with great joy. Gifts of living a simple, beautiful and meaningful life.

Gifts of being humble and never losing hope. Values of not doubting God and never failing to pray, even in the most weakest and hardest moments , to give it all to him, and rest in his care.

To believe that one day this man that washed and repaired cars, that one day that this man who was mocked about, that one day this man who did not once think of his dreams, that one day this man who started from a pin, One day this man would FINALLY LIFE’S STRUGGLES WIN.

This man that burnt in the sun, tirelessly day in and day out, this man that ran about to fetch us all that we need, this man that kept us all under his wings.

He is my Father. 

My king. And I want to tell you. That I am proud of you. And that I love you.

I am never ashamed of this. You’ll are the wonders worth writing about, so all can read.

I wanted to write this to remind me of the days long gone, but the very days that made you the man I call my hero, my MAN OF STEEL.

And if you dada are like this, I can only imagine How much Our FATHER in HEAVEN loves us.

He never left you in your struggle only because you remained faithful to Him.

And this is the greatest lesson of the many you taught us through your actions.

Life at times is a challenge, one that defeats you, degrades you, makes you lose hope and faith. That grinds you till you break. But it also leads you to a new door of hope each time you fail , and when you take God’s hand and let him guide you, you will be uplifted in the most unexpected ways and unexpected times with blessings that make you believe in His power and glorious  plans.

Times did change, now Dada, God has blest you with everything, every damn thing that once was a dream. And if we sometimes feel a tiny pinch, then it is a reminder for us to look up, and live with HIM. HE WILL LEAD US WHERE HE NEEDS US. 

For the many times I fail you’ll, I am truly very sorry.

There is simply no other set of parents I’d rather have.

It’s only you. You’ll are the greatest blessings we are blest with.

I am not very best with speeches and saying things aloud. It’s the way I am. So this is for you and for me to remember our blessed roots.

With so much love my heart can offer,

Your ever protected daughter.

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An act of APPRECIATION.

A simple act of appreciation means that you value, regard highly, praise, admire , respect , treasure something/someone enough to make it heard/visible in words or actions.

It shows that you have a spirit of humility and compassion, and you know when to appreciate and what to.

Anything or anyone worthy of praise , should be appreciated, let not your tongue cut off what they rightfully deserve.

Appreciation is never a fake act. What might we refer as fake appreciation is over blown flattery.

​I have often come across people who lack the ability to appreciate others.

Appreciating others does not make you less important, it makes an impression that you aren’t bitter.

Is it so difficult to say two words of kindness to make someone know how you value what they do, their acts, their works, their words, can be anything .

How many times do we admire nature and are filled with wonder?

Do we ever look up and tell God , that HE is indeed an Amazing Creator ?

That His plan for us is so beautiful?

That His love for us is so deeply satisfying?

How often do we appreciate our mother’s food ? her arduous work keeping our home together? her love for always prioritizing us – her children?

How often do we appreciate our Dad for his dedication towards us ?

How often do we appreciate our siblings’ best qualities without spite ?

How often do we look at our best friend, and thank them, for their presence?

How often do we appreciate a work of art, creativity, words or any other work done ?

It is put together by someone, someone took efforts, it did help you in some way, or may be of no benefit to you , yet you took a moment to admire, does it hurt to put your admiration into words ?

If you are super beautiful or talented and filled with so much pride, you often can’t stand when others – the one’s you tag as simpletons outstanding you.

Why the bitterness? If they can appreciate your beauty, the least you could do is return the favor with kind truthful words of appreciation.

Being honest with your praise does not hurt your soul but perhaps your ego.

Appreciating or praising often is the way to water the garden of goodness in you. You can see for yourself when you learn to be more appreciative of life and people, the small difference it makes has a butterfly effect.

Small ripples make great changes.

There is power in Praise. We know that. The more we praise God , the more we see our life change for better. Do not restrict yourself to God alone. Praise God, and His creations, that also includes your-own-self . See the ripple effect of kind words and actions to God, people around and you.

Remember, if they who appreciate turn to be as bitter as your non appreciative tongue, there will remain no one someday, to appreciate what was once your ace but now the reason for your spite.

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Blunders of life.

He left her for someone else ,

& She kinda learnt to re-live.

Even though it hurt so bad,

betrayals make you longer grieve .


He spoke about his endless dreams,

and made her believe she was in.

And on the hill top, as he neared,

He’s very presence had her feared.

Somehow she knew she had to leave,

because the hope he gave,

her heart couldn’t around weave.


He was like butter,

melting over a hot pan,

He tried to make her heart flutter,

then she realized his underlying plans,

He understood she wasn’t his pawn,

& so He shut her out, because she had let him down.


He texted her and got all yo yo!

She cringed and thought- ‘why me though ?’

again She was disappointed with disrespect,

Wishing everyone had a label on their heads,

Hah ! that would have been so utterly perfect!


So much for trying to be more hopeful,

so much for getting down the walls,

with the endless falls,

each encounter made her more remorseful,

but she still stood brave & tall.

No love! she can’t allow you in,

unless you teach her how to trust from within,

give her endless reasons, so you she could believe in,

realizing she doesn’t know anything about love,

hoping you could give her a meaning.

Remember she has far too many doubts, 

& many more fears have crept in,

She is exhausted with meaningless encounters,

so don’t expect her to easily give in .


_ L E A N D R A _

_ R O D R I G U E S _

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Zamplification !!!

to Zamplify

means : to have the zest to amplify your being.

and Zamplification is simply the zesty or enthusiastic process to amplify your entire being.

Yayyy! I have my own word now.

What does Zamplification refer to ?

We all know about the laws of attraction of the universe.

Where books say “You are the product of your thoughts.”

Bible says “Ask and you shall receive, seek & you shall find, knock & the door shall be open. ”

This is basically what you think is what you become, I do have a separate write up on it written back in 2014 – WITIWIB ( https://leannerod8.wordpress.com/2014/12/06/witiwib/  ).

So coming back to my topic of zamplification,

it is to amplify your entire being,

have you ever noticed that if you are sad, dull, negative, your life is a drag of pessimism  ?

And if you are happy, fun loving, optimistic, it’s like you are the magnet for happiness, people often tag you as a “Happy go lucky, jolly good fellow.”

So this is exactly what Zamplification is about.

To Zamplify, one must simply :

-be good to oneself

-think good about oneself

-self love, self respect, self belief, self reliance should be prioritised .

-if you are a victim of pessimism then start practicing optimism, by saying aloud positive affirmations daily , like I am happy, i am enough, I can do this, I am able, I am unique, I am a masterpiece, etc.

-What you feed your being is what you amplify, what you shall reap in the morrow depends on what you feed.

Whether food or thoughts, let it be good, healthy, and refreshing.

-Refrain from going back to the bad spots of your earlier self.

– Good is achievable, success is achievable, if you believe.


And I do believe zamplifying myself will lead me into the best definition of living life well.
Zamplification  for me is a new art of living to amplify my being by producing and harboring good positive thoughts, converting my negative energy into goal oriented plans and using the unconvertible to fuel me to become a better being.

It is a step for change.

I want to Zamplify into my best self , at every phase in my life.

(I will write more on this … an indepth study. )

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