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You are beautiful.

Listen you who are misguided too,
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.

Regardless of your face or body.

Your personality,
your character,
your heart, your emotions,
your sensitivity to others,
your values & principles,
your goals , your dreams,
your charisma, your nature,
your outlook , your optimism,
your inner being, your gratitude,
your smile, kindness, courage …….
And all of you is what makes you beautiful.

Please don’t let people tell you otherwise.
And please please stay away from people who make you believe that you are not.

I was friends with a person who made it so clear to me that I kinda admitted that beautiful was never going to be my cup of tea. I was a kid who hoped that someone would someday genuinely say it to me. It’s something what people long for. To be told that they are part of the beautiful world.

That’s a thing of the past now. And I really don’t blame anyone. It’s how I was and how I had to grow up to learn to look at beautiful in a different light, different perspectives.
And that’s when I realized the world had different varied visions and perspectives to look at the same things.

It is so difficult for some people to just say something good to someone, to appreciate them, to compliment them, and I mean all this for it’s genuiness, not fake flattery.

We live such shallow lives that are banked on ” I will compliment if she/he compliments. I will talk if she/he approaches.” Everyone is so shelled up and closed and unappreciative towards each other.
Why I wonder?

Go ahead and tell atleast one person how beautiful they are. Observe their reaction. They will have a smile radiating happiness and disbelief. Disbelief because no one says such good things to one another anymore.
Why look for people. Tell your parents and siblings what beautiful people they are.
When you become the reason to make someone happy, you will always be much more happier with yourself.
Beautiful is not the exterior that will go back to dust, beautiful will be that quotient of you that will leave behind a fragrance of fond remembrance even after your last.

Stay beautiful and blest, you brave soul.

Spread on some positivity around.

Keep smiling.

#leeevibes

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Me as an Empath.

Somehow there’s more than just hope now, there’s a sense of going happily crazy discovering who I am, what are my limits & understanding the deeper purpose of my existence. And Somehow I just so damn well know.. “THERE’S MORE TO ME , THAN I CAN SEE OR I AM STARING TOO LONG AT, BUT WHAT AM I LOOKING AT & WHAT SHOULD I LOOK FOR ? ”

You can fool yourself to feel miserable and utterly overjoyed over perpetual reasons which are mind made up traps of playing the victim or just a veil darned for pretence of forcing you and all around of what an incredibly happy bird you are, you can always chirp , chirp & chirp, every season.

Sometimes we need the quiet (meditation) to realise if what we are and where we are is realistic or forced pretentious bubbles of non acceptance of reality subconsciously.

Stubbornness cannot be controlled unless you know what are you truly stubborn about, do you know ?

No! I DON’T PITY YOU. ON THE CONTRARY, I RESPECT YOU.
Pain is such a beautiful thing to happen to us, it makes you wiser .
A life with none would do you no good,
but again there is just no life with none of it.

It will touch you,a tiny sliver enough to cut a gash too deep. Just enough to give you a good tough shipwreck.
Hello there sailor, panic isn’t an option.
And I won’t ask you to be brave either,
do what you must, if you haven’t learn’t to deal with adversaries before you are hit than adversaries will teach you how to deal with it.

And remember nothing happens to you without it having a wonderful defining meaning to your life. The good, the bad, all alike.

You can lose what you dont expect to and gain what you don’t intend to, and yet , I want you to halt there AFTER a good healthy grieving , to look out for the other side of the coin you are so stubborn to not give a looking.

I see you , wanting help but not really asking, I see wanting to help and not knowing how, may my words reach you :
“YOU are beautiful, amazing and a vibrant soul. Your pain is defining you. The furnace will burn you. But it will also mould you. Don’t give up thinking it’s the end, smile , because there’s just a new journey right there, waiting for you to turn and take a chance and plunge into another breathtaking adventure. Life will give you all the colors you’ll need, and no one will paint your masterpiece so refulgent, than you, yes you, you alone. ”

We often hear people telling us, “let your pain and failures not define you”.
But I want to tell you,
” Let it define you, let it mould you, and may you find the courage to see how uplifting it is for it’s true worth. Do not go by what the world claims, it calls pain trash and failures setbacks & crap, but no, it is so much more than just a mere rock, inside of which is the most purely formed and distinctively created jewel.”

I am enough.

When I was a kid, I was hopelessly stick thin, black and looked like an unwanted ugly monkey.

Well I’m sorry I’m harsh,  but that’s what I believe I felt or was made to feel.

No matter how many tonics or foods or skirts of bukram they’d dress me with, no layers could hide away what I was.

Basically ugly. Unphotogenic.

Even though I was loved, it came with a condition of me not learning to love myself.

I was always conscious. No one bothered to teach me to love and accept myself.

On the contrary it was the exact opposite, I had to layer up in bukrams to not look like a stick or pull my unruly curly hair in tight pony tails making my head ache, only so they could think I was having a civilized upbringing.

What would have it been like , to be told then,

“darling you are beautiful with your wild hair, and caramel skin. No matter what you weigh, don’t let your heart be dismayed. We love you, and you should love every part of you.Because beauty lies within.”

Would I have learnt to love myself differently?

But it didn’t happen that way.

Self loving was and is probably a selfish thought , as per them. Knowing the way I’m brought up, I should put others  before me. Being selfless is the key to live a good life.

Is it ? Being human and selfless all the time, made me realise I’m always paying the price for disappointments and expectations. When will I learn to love, respect and accept every atom in my body ?

They don’t understand that it’s a necessity for every child to learn to accept themselves before they can accept the world as it is.

If these children haven’t conquered their inner most demons, how will they withstand the trials of this journey ? But no, fitting in was more important lesson then helping them gear up for life battles through self acceptance.

Ofcourse, as I hit puberty, my body changed, I did gain weight. And guess what , now they have words like pumpkin and fat ass for me.

The name calling never changes in time. Does it ?

You are either too thin or too fat!

what’s perfect to fit in? exactly? I never felt that, I won’t ever know what it is like to be loved for being the perfect puzzle fitting everyone’s expectations?

Even though with the weight I gained, I kinda became abit photogenic, so I’m kinda cute, not beautiful, mind you, that’s something only for the perfect shaped fair beauties. Beautiful is a word I hardly came across.

Have you ever tried telling your kid how beautiful they are, how beautiful their heart is ?

That’s a beautiful way to soar their spirit, But naaah, I’m sorry you’ll are always busy teaching them to fit in the world.

Why the hell can’t you’ll realize, that not all are meant to fit in ? Why can’t you let them be ?

Sometimes you don’t have to teach your child what is right, have faith in them, and let them decide. If you taught them well, they will do good. And if they fumble, teach them, that it is okay, that they can rise, that they are loved for what they are. They don’t have to be like someone else, rather just be themselves , the true self their spirit belongs to. Stop comparing them to their siblings and friends. Each one is different. Whilst they lack what the others have, they have something that others don’t, instead of boiling and cursing on what they lack, why can’t you appreciate what they have ?

How difficult is it ? To only say a few kind words with a warm smile, assuring them, that you accept them even if the world doesn’t.

So when I faced a tough life situation, where I had to let go of what I wanted, because it was toxic and degrading me. I was raw , and bare and cut open, with so much anxiety, pain and no self love. Always wondering what went wrong ?

What did I lack ? questioning my existence. Not having faith in my purpose ? What was I doing here ? Why am I breathing ?  Am I that unwanted? Can no one learn to love me ?

How can they , when I can’t?

I learnt it the harsh way, when I thought it was too late to, I’m not yet done learning to fully love and accept my self. But I’m working on it.

Baby steps, small steps, a step forward is a way forward.

And I tell you it isn’t selfish to self love, it is a wonderful way to self accept the inner most being you are. And that acceptance fuels your confidence and builds your belief in yourself.

It is very crucial to love oneself before you can love others. Because only then you have love within, love enough to share.

Harbor and harness that inner love, let it grow, and then you shall see the change, where you can feel the beauty gush out from within you to around you. You will have a wonderful vision of life and live even more peacefully in a world, that you need not fear, need not be forced to fit in, because you don’t have to, you can stand out, and make others believe in their true authentic self. Because that is enough. You are enough.

I am enough. More than enough.

The Letter

Dear ALL-MIGHTY LORD,

Life has got me through many ordeals, and every time I face a new one, I feel smaller and weaker and lost. But each time I turn to you, you never cease to amaze me. For you never forsake.

Unlike the many who promise to be there but never really are. You watch me walk through the battlefield not from afar. And each time you smile and strengthen me with your words.

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When I am afraid and I feel rejected. You say :

“I did not reject you, but chose you. Do not be afraid-I am with you! I am your God- let nothing terrify you! I will make you strong and help you; I will protect you and save you.” Isaiah 41:9-10

When I lose all hope and feel like giving up . You say:

“Fight. Tomorrow I will give you victory.” Judges20:28

“Do not cling to events of the past or dwell on what happened long ago. Watch for the new things I am going to do. It is happening already- You can see it now. I will make a way through the wilderness .” Isaiah 43:18-19

“Stop your crying and wipe away your tears. There is hope for your future. I, the Lord , have spoken.” Jeremiah 31:16-17

When I am wounded, in pain, hurt. Your word heals:

“The Lord will heal the wounds inflicted by his blow.” Isaiah 30:26

“He heals the broken-hearted and bandages their wounds.” Psalms147:3

When I feel lost. You word reminds me:

“God alone knows the way, knows the place where wisdom is found.” Job 28:23

“I am the Lord your God, the one who wants to teach you for your own good and direct you in the way you should go.” Isaiah 48:17

“Every test that you have experienced is the kind that normally comes to people. But God keeps his promise, and he will not allow you to be tested beyond your power to remain firm; at the time you are put to test, He will give you strength to endure it, and so provide you with a way out.” 1 Corinthians 10:13

When I am tempted to believe you have left me to burn. You say:

“Do not be afraid- I will save you. I have called you by your name- YOU ARE MINE. When you pass through deep waters , I will be with you; your troubles will not overwhelm you. When you pass through fire, you will not be burnt; the hard trials that come will not hurt you.” Isaiah 43:1-2

“I will give up whole nations to save your life, because you are precious to me and because I LOVE YOU and give you honour. DO NOT BE AFRAID – I AM WITH YOU.” Isaiah 43:4-5

“Do not let evil defeat you; instead conquer evil with good” Romans 12: 21

When I complain . You say:

“Mustard seed is the smallest of all seeds but when it grows up, it is the biggest of all plants.” Mathew 13:32 You teach of patience and acceptance in times of trials.

“God will put his angels in charge of you, to protect you wherever you go.”Psalms 91:11

When I feel ashamed of all the wrongs I’ve done. I am reminded :

“He knows all that has ever been and all that ever will be; He uncovers the deepest of mysteries. He takes notice of our every thought.” Sirach 42:19-20

“Forgive; and God will forgive you.” Luke6:37

“If you kept a record of our sins, who could escape being condemned? But you forgive us, so that we should stand in awe of you.” Psalms130:4

When I am left with the “why?” hanging around me. I listen to your provoked voice:

“No one should ask why things are as they are, everything in creation has its own purpose.” Sirach 39:21

When I feel incomplete. You word says:

“Nothing the Lord made is incomplete. Everything completes the goodness of something else.”Sirach 42:25

When I am in need of strength. I say:

“ I have the strength to face all conditions by the power that CHRIST gives me.” Phillippians 4:13

When I think of all the miracles you do and be hopeful. You say:

If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”Mathew 21:22

“Ask, and you will receive; seek, and you will find; Knock, and the door shall be opened.”Luke 11:9

When your word advices me. I try to pay attention:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know. Remember the Lord in everything you do, and he will show you the right way. If you obey the Lord, it will be like good medicine healing your wounds and easing your pains. When the Lord corrects you, pay attention and take it as a warning. The Lord corrects those he loves, just as a father corrects his son. Hold on to your wisdom and insight. They will provide you with life. Whenever you possibly can, do good to those who need it.” Proverbs 3:5-27

There are times when I feel. I am not enough. I am not worthy. I won’t be able. But you always prove me wrong. You give me the push I need. You make me knock on doors that I would think would never open for me. But you always surprise me with your mercy and Love and acceptance.

I feel unworthy Lord, of your unconditional love. Because I fail to believe your presence in the most agonising situations. BUT YOU ARE THERE.YOU ALWAYS ARE.

“Can a woman forget her own baby and not love the child she bore? Even if a mother should forget her child, I will never forget you. I have carved you on the palm of my hand.” Isaiah 49:15-16

There’s so much your words tell me. There’s so much wisdom you give. This BOOK of love you gave me is a reminder of How blest I am to be your child; OF HOW MUCH LOVE I HAVE WHEN I HAVE YOU BESIDE ME, IN ME, WITH ME.

It will always be less, what all I’ve written here. Because just like your LOVE , YOUR WORD is eternal.

It nourishes me in a way that no worldly thing can. I DO NOT WISH TO BE GREAT FOR THE WORLD. But I WISH TO BE SOMETHING FOR YOU.Names of God

I know you value me beyond anything. And yet I want to add more value to me, your creation, in a way you have already chosen for me.

Let me be humble, and let my faith burn and spread the warmth of your Love to all those who need to know THAT YOU ARE WORTHY OF EVERY PRAISE.

“You, Oh Lord, is all I have, and so I put my hope in you.” Lamentations 3:24

All glory and honour to you.

AMEN. HALLELUIAH.

THANK YOU JESUS.

-Your child forever.