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Carpet of wrong turns.

Hidden carpet of wrong turns ,

take me to the skies,

lead me on , beyond the ways

I couldn’t pass by.

Hear me out, oh Wrong turns!

don’t make my life a lie,

I chose you over 

all that life offered without any spite.

You were so tempting and conniving

Oh Wrong turns!

I was Eve , you – the Serpent,

You bit me, you hissed,

even my tears I risked,

I lost a lot, Oh wrong turns !

Your carpet holds the dead remains,

you snatched away, you gnawed at me,

you left me brutally mundane,

I repent though, Oh carpet of wrong turns!

I repent not thinking wise,

but the lessons you gave,

you made me so brave,

I’m starting to believe, I can rise.

Flying through you , oh carpet of wrong turns !

I’m learning to live my life,

And so now when I choose the right,

I remember how you taught me

from wrongs how to reach out into the light,

So hidden carpet of wrong turns,

within me you reside,

take me over and above my fears,

help me build my might in this fight.

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Choices that we think are wrong. Or have wronged us, in some way or the other, aren’t actually wrong .

There is something right in them. Look harder and someday you shall see what I meant.

I have learnt far more better certain amazing things about life deeply through my wrong turns. No , there wasn’t just once I was wrong, I’ve been wrong a great many times, but I’ve learnt something always and made sure to be wise.

But sometimes it’s not about being wise or practical or living how you are expected to, sometimes it’s about intuition, it’s about feeling something right in the moment, these situations may be right for that moment and wrong in all other, but that doesn’t mean , it’s wrong entirely. For the moment it was created, that choice you made was meant to be, whether wrong or right, everything is fated, it is bound to happen, one way or the other, whatever we choose to live with or depart from, essentially is a part of a much bigger beautiful plan by our God.

So dear there, don’t feel disheartened about being wrong, or choosing wrong , stop feeling disappointed, repent though, work hard to forgive yourself and seek forgiveness where needed, work harder to understand the depths of the lessons hidden in this carpet of wrong turns.

As humans it is pretty normal for us to fall prey to it, don’t be too hard on yourself though, 

learn to let go of this carpet when it’s time, 

learn to heal, 

learn to feel that things happen and life stops for no one. 

Move dear, move forward, 

move into the light that awaits , 

whether right or wrong, you will find a way. 

Stay hopeful. Stay blest.

Much love. 

Come world, I dare you.

​Look at the flaws,

they scream and screech,

are they as loud

as my insecurities hiss ?

Hey world,

I am here now,

tell me with your brutal tongue,

what you once told me,

am I as limited as your narrow horrid mind ?

Can you see how infinite I am,

as I stand to not heed your ruthless voice,

but to make you listen to my rant ?

I’ve had enough of all the curveballs you could throw my way this past 2 decades,

I fell, got hurt, rose a thousand times, through the dirt,

there was remorse, there was still hope,

that one day, when no one stands for me,

I won’t feel so broke,

and I tell you,

that one day is now,

it’s here, 

so world,

I dare you to fight me the best you can,

this time I ain’t gonna back down,

this time I own my crown,

I own me,

I found my voice,

and I don’t need no one to stand with me,

because I learnt

being brave at heart,

is all I need to face your meaningless wrath.

Come now, and hit me square in my jaw,

I assure ,you will have an equal opposite reaction as Newton explained in his law,

So find my weakness and hit me hard,

I promise

I will come back to smash you with my Acing card.


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For each breath is a gift.

Life ?

How’s it going ?

Definitely not like I imagined.

I had this vision. Study a professional course, have some years of experience and someday have my own office, my own cabin. Be the boss of my life. Earn and enjoy life, never once forgetting to thank God.

But that vision is lost in time. Now , I’m not sure what I once wanted is what I need at this hour.

I never once imagined me having a blog, being a writer, making pic quotes, writing a book, inspiring a few , connecting emotionally with many, and fighting the odds of racism, mental work harassments, and body shaming. 

I never imagined that I would see the truth about  the thing I very much once wanted, that it did not have the sparkle I had falsely seen in it. I’m not entirely sure where my happiness lies, at this moment.  Maybe it’s this phase of confusion, I need some much needed “Me time” to decide the route out of my crises.

There are tons of things we never imagined or thought of. Yet they happen to us. Tons of lessons we hoped we never would ever face, yet we become the victims, tons of cautions we undertake, yet the damage is done. Things that we can’t really control, things that throw us off our pendulum. So at unease, leaving us at a terrifying phase. 

And then, we sit to wonder , what did go wrong ? what were the mistakes?

Take enough me time. To delve more deeply into your own self, trying to understand what your life is , trying to understand the situations you face, if you can go through it, or if you have a way out, if you wish to take that way out ? or not? But in the first place if you want to go through it. A choice

A choice is what most often changes every chapter of our life. And sometimes these very choices end up with “what ifs ?” and “whys?” .

Could be a toxic relationship we chose to be in, or decided to break free of, that’s a chapter of love and break up. Pretty messy. 

What if you had chosen to never give it a chance in the first place ? 

There would be no messy chapter, no rough life lessons to learn about letting go and building yourself.

The immence growth that we see in us , after every changing sphere of our lives, is the maturity we are gifted, with the very life lessons that come from hurt, grief, missery, anxiety and broken trust, the very lessons we hope to never face. Yet we must . 

Have courage, to encounter such challenges that crush you time and again, no matter how excruciating the pain or the phase of hopelessness is. 

Because these are the very dawns to our days of victory. Victory over being our true brave mature self.

Fun and frolic is a very essential segment of our life, let not the burden of growth through painful encounters and crises, make you give up on finding growth through laughter.

Because as much as pain and crises tear us apart so we learn how to rebuild our selves from our ashes, so does laughter and happiness heal all our empty spaces.

We need a balance of both , happiness to air float and heal and feel gratuitous, and sadness to keep us grounded and hopeful, and understand the depths of life. 

Life is in those million mini seconds, where your heart squeezes with happiness at a baby laughing, where your eyes shed tears when you are mourning, where you can smile despite a chaotic phase, where you have and acknowledge the many things and people that add something of them to every of your days and nights. 

Life is in these zillion pieces, where you breathe, through the highs and lows, and often forget to  realise what a gift indeed it is to breathe, and stay alive.

Praise the Lord. Praise you Jesus.

Thank you lord, for saving and protecting my loved ones. Thank you for the gift of our lives.

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Zamplification !!!

to Zamplify

means : to have the zest to amplify your being.

and Zamplification is simply the zesty or enthusiastic process to amplify your entire being.

Yayyy! I have my own word now.

What does Zamplification refer to ?

We all know about the laws of attraction of the universe.

Where books say “You are the product of your thoughts.”

Bible says “Ask and you shall receive, seek & you shall find, knock & the door shall be open. ”

This is basically what you think is what you become, I do have a separate write up on it written back in 2014 – WITIWIB ( https://leannerod8.wordpress.com/2014/12/06/witiwib/  ).

So coming back to my topic of zamplification,

it is to amplify your entire being,

have you ever noticed that if you are sad, dull, negative, your life is a drag of pessimism  ?

And if you are happy, fun loving, optimistic, it’s like you are the magnet for happiness, people often tag you as a “Happy go lucky, jolly good fellow.”

So this is exactly what Zamplification is about.

To Zamplify, one must simply :

-be good to oneself

-think good about oneself

-self love, self respect, self belief, self reliance should be prioritised .

-if you are a victim of pessimism then start practicing optimism, by saying aloud positive affirmations daily , like I am happy, i am enough, I can do this, I am able, I am unique, I am a masterpiece, etc.

-What you feed your being is what you amplify, what you shall reap in the morrow depends on what you feed.

Whether food or thoughts, let it be good, healthy, and refreshing.

-Refrain from going back to the bad spots of your earlier self.

– Good is achievable, success is achievable, if you believe.


And I do believe zamplifying myself will lead me into the best definition of living life well.
Zamplification  for me is a new art of living to amplify my being by producing and harboring good positive thoughts, converting my negative energy into goal oriented plans and using the unconvertible to fuel me to become a better being.

It is a step for change.

I want to Zamplify into my best self , at every phase in my life.

(I will write more on this … an indepth study. )

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As HE spoke to me.

Dear Friends, 

This chapter:  Jeremiah 31 : in the Bible helped me immensely to rekindle my faith. It is so clearly written to understand deeply and have hope because there’s simply so much God spoke to me in this.

I hope this touches you as it touched me.

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My Lord speaks : ——————-

“My child, My dearest loving sweet child, When you were lost in the desert of a false life and false belief, I was with you, I showed you my mercy. Remember My love,  My mercy and grace will help you overcome all your shortcomings and limitations. 

I have always loved you, My child, always, and I continue to show you my constant love. I will rebuild you, and equip you with everything that you shall need as I will guide you to the storms you face in life, and I will lead you to a road back to me where you will not stumble.

Trust me My love, Have so much faith that you can trust me blindly, for I will never let you down.

If the devil has given you the thoughts, that I have punished you, that I have scattered your emotions and your life in a whirlwind, that it is my fault that you are suffering, Listen to me, Please , Speak to me, do not let him make you believe in him and doubt me. I will gather you, and your hurt feelings, I will guard you like the good shepherd I am. I will set you free from the evil trap, let Me in , my child. Let Me do this for You.

Only I can save you. Will you let me ? Because when I do, you shall be overjoyed and delighted with all the blessings I shower you with. With Me, you will be well taken care of, and all your needs will be satisfied. I will comfort you like a mother to her child, I will turn your mourning into joy, your sorrow into gladness. Believe in Me.

I am not a genie here to grant your wishes. I am Your God, Your Father, Your creator, I know so much more about you and your needs than you know yourself and even more than your own father and mother. I know your every thought, I know my plan for your life, for your future, your prosperity. 

Stop your crying and wipe away your tears.

My dear parents, don’t forget that you too are my children, even when you I have blest with my other children, even as you grow older, you are still my children as your chidren are to you, no matter how old they get, for you they will always be your small babies you want to protect, like I do. I assure you, all that you have done for your children will not go unrewarded; each time you placed your child before your wishes, dreams and happiness, I will bless you with even greater rewards. Your children are mine, and I will deliver them from the hands of our enemy/ satan.

My child, There is hope for your future; a HOPE that I will always give you, even when you feel that flame extinguished, I will let it burn within you. For my Hope for you is endless and so should your faith in me be. You are my dearest child, the one I love best, my love for you is boundless. 

Whenever I mention your name, I think of you with loveMy heart goes out to you; just like a mothers flutters the moment she see’s her newborn. You do that to me each time you look upwards to me and call for me with faith and hope in your eyes. You give me pure joy to help you my child.

Come to me even when you have wronged me, I will be merciful, because my love will overpower all the wrongs you do. Because your wrongs are not you, you are my pure child, created will pure love, if the evil tempts you , try not to give in, I will help you if you ask me. I will not hold your wrongs against you. If you have gone astray, far away from me, it is never too late to return, I am waiting for you. Think of me, say my Name, It has power, believe and you shall find your way back to Me. Even when the evil tempts you to believe that it is futile, that there is no way back, that you are stuck, and I will not forgive you and accept you, Do not believe him.

After all that I have said to you, believe me, have faith in my love, Do not be afraid of me. I am Your father, even if I do get angry, Don’t you think it is my right to be so, as your father, allow me  to correct you, to lead you, to guide you, to protect you, to help you.

Come back my love, Come back home. Come back to me. You will always find a way back to me.  My spirit will guide you.

I will refresh your weary self and will satisfy your hunger with good food for your spirit.

 My child, when I test you, lead you to the deep waters, as I took care to uproot, to pull down, to overthrow, to destroy, and to demolish you, so will I take care to plant and build you into something more stronger and beautiful. Let me shape and mould you for the plans I have in store for you. Be open to My Will, it will be easy when you focus on me.

Have you ever seen an artist or a potter at work, how mystical it is to watch, you are my canvas, my clay , I am the creator , I will make the best of you , be patient with me, the longer I take with you, the results will be even more spectacular. Let me do what I must to make the most of you. Never lose faith in me.

Also remember , no sins are passed down to generations, no one is punished for the wrongs of others, do not curse, because curses belong to the evil one, they will bite back. Bless everyone, even the ones that make you doubt my plan. Bless your situations, Pray to me, I will speak to you.

My word is the portal for us to meet in prayer. Each one shall be held guilty for your own wrongdoings, until you repent and come back to me. Then, I will reside in the temple within you. I will be Your God, and You will be my precious child. I will forgive all of your sins and no longer remember your wrongs. I, the Lord, have spoken.

All of yourself will be rebuilt as my child, my own. You are sacred to me, in totality;  sin or without sin, good and bad, I will accept you, never reject you , for you are my sweet child, my love, I will never again let you be torn down or destroyed. I will make you whole in Me.

Much Love and blessings always,

Your loving Father.

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Let’s read the Word of the Lord along with it.

Jeremiah 31 (GNT)

 In the desert I showed mercy to those people who had escaped death. When the people of Israel longed for rest, I appeared to them from far away. People of Israel, I have always loved you, so I continue to show you my constant love. Once again I will rebuild you.

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9 I will guide them to streams of water,
    on a smooth road where they will not stumble.

10 The Lord says,

I scattered my people, but I will gather them
    and guard them as a shepherd guards his flock.
11 I have set Israel’s people free
    and have saved them from a mighty nation.
12 They will come and sing for joy on Mount Zion
    and be delighted with my gifts
 
They will be like a well-watered garden;
    they will have everything they need.
13 Then the  young and old, will rejoice.
I will comfort them and turn their mourning into joy,
    their sorrow into gladness.
14 I will fill the priests with the richest food
    and satisfy all the needs of my people.
I, the Lord, have spoken.”

16 Stop your crying
    and wipe away your tears.
All that you have done for your children
    will not go unrewarded;
    they will return from the enemy’s land.
17 There is hope for your future;
    your children will come back home.
    I, the Lord, have spoken.

20 “Israel, you are my dearest child,
    the one I love best.
Whenever I mention your name,
    I think of you with love.
My heart goes out to you;
    I will be merciful.
21 Set up signs and mark the road;
    find again the way by which you left.
Come back, people of Israel,
    come home to the towns you left.

25 I will refresh those who are weary and will satisfy with food everyone who is weak from hunger. 

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26 So then, people will say, ‘I went to sleep and woke up refreshed.’

28 And just as I took care to uproot, to pull down, to overthrow, to destroy, and to demolish them, so I will take care to plant them and to build them up. 29 When that time comes, people will no longer say,

‘The parents ate the sour grapes,
But the children got the sour taste.’

30 Instead, those who eat sour grapes will have their own teeth set on edge; and everyone will die because of their own sin.”

33 The new covenant that I will make with the people of Israel will be this: I will put my law within them and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people. 34 None of them will have to teach a neighbor to know the Lord, because all will know me, from the least to the greatest. I will forgive their sins and I will no longer remember their wrongs. I, the Lord, have spoken.”

35 The Lord provides the sun for light by day,
    the moon and the stars to shine at night.
He stirs up the sea and makes it roar;
    his name is the Lord Almighty.
36 He promises that as long as the natural order lasts,
    so long will Israel be a nation.

38 The time is coming,” says the Lord, “when all of Jerusalem will be rebuilt as my city.

40 The entire valley, where the dead are buried and garbage is dumped, and all the fields above Kidron  as far as the Horse Gate to the east, will be sacred to me. The city will never again be torn down or destroyed.”

The Word of the Lord. Thanks be to God.

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#9 Finding Me

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One day at a time,

One step at a time,

One thing at a time,

One goal,

One dream,

One thought,

One plan,

One path,

One journey,

One life.


Take it slow.

Take it easy.

Take it positively.


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Unhealthy obsession 

I realized I really had an unhealthy obsession about my best friend.

I get over possessive and overly hurt when my mountain of hideous expectations fail me.

Very often we unknowingly let our lives revolve around such obsessions.

Whilts there is endless love and acceptance that I have found in her humble soul,

I cannot let myself obsess over it and expect the unthinkable.

I need to let loose of people, of people I love. 

I cannot cling on to them, because that is unhealthy and toxic.

I need to learn to understand what it is to stand alone and on my own and accept myself at that value .

It’s tough to realise the vicious cycle that I weaved around me, its a trap, and when I finally see the clarity , it really feels like a break up.

Whilst I need to undo the damage and pain  I am self inflicting on me, I need to figure how things and my life should be, I need more clarity on making God my first priority and then me .

Sometimes you just realise things very late.

But when you do, you just need to change what is, what was and make something better out of it.

Break out of unhealthiness and unhappiness and march into contentment and self joy.

It is not selfish of me to decide to change so as to hold myself together.

It is not selfish of me to stop over investing and over prioritizing people who’s lives dont really revolve around mine, which I had an illusion about, because mine did revolve around them. And believe me when the clarity sunk in, it hurt, it hurt real bad.

Whilst they have their lives together, and a plan ahead, I need to work on mine, get my deteriorating life balanced and stable.

I am not a negative person, and I don’t hate them. They are still and will always be the people I love.

But henceforth they shall be people I love and not obsess about.

It’s quite  a challenge but With God I can do this.

Dear Lord,

Today I come to You, with all the bondages and obsessions and addictions that I have tied and weaved my life around.

I know and see and feel how they are slowly degrading me and making me lose myself in a pit of self torture and lamentations.

I come to You, so You may lead me on, help me find my lost way, and make me whole ,  restored and renewed.

Help me Lord that I may seek You and make You my life’s centre. Help me remain united in Your Spirit.

Fill me with Your grace, and rejuvenate my dying self with Your eternal love.

For with You alone , I have no disappointments, no hurt, no distractions, no addictions, no pain , no misery.

For with You, I know I will find myself with what’s left of me. 

For with You, I shall be victorious.

In the Most Holy , Precious and powerful name of my Lord Jesus Christ.

AMEN.