Ages back she said this one thing
“You are too dramatic.”
and it still bothers me like a thorn beneath my feet.
And I want to make peace.
I don’t really know in what context she said it.
If being overly emotional about things is being dramatic , then I don’t know how to be the normal version you’d prefer. So I’ll stick to being dramatic.
I am pretty sure there are people like me who have such an atomic composition where we are just born sensitive, and I’m one of those that will be in tears for a stupid emotional movie even if that’s among a 100 people in a theatre, pretty much why I avoid sad movies.
Ask me if I would prefer any disney movie or action movies like Batman or Spiderman or Ironman or series like Sherlock Homes, or Once upon a time, or TVD or even Horror movies (no one should scream in my ears)…. I’m your buddy to enjoy a marathon of them with or without popcorn.
If this will be reason for you to get a chance to call me childish, then Hey …I am that.
If caring and loving blindly and selflessly was me being fake, then ,ouch, I’m sorry, it took me so long, but I , now , don’t invest my emotions and faith in just any person.
If my care of messaging was an issue of frustration and nagging, then its great , now I don’t really bother texting or calling anyone.
If you could ignore my presence , to be with people that make you look cool, then , Thanks again, I’m making space for people who can appreciate my presence.
I assure you ,
when I am silent , it is my voice that you shall miss,
when I am not the one motivating , it is my words that will create a void,
when I will have buried all that I wrapped,
my presence will never be yours to cherish.
Because when you couldn’t value what I was,
then you don’t get to watch who I become.
Thank you for the blessons,
I can now so relate to me.
Major life alterations happen when you have more disappointments from people you invest in.
Everyone realises this in time, that it’s best to expect the least from people you naturally expect the most.
But Hey… they are the major #Blessons … Appreciate it.
Take life as it comes.
and start belonging to your soul.
#confessions (P.S. Probably the last of Finding me series. )