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Reborn to Life!!

For all those still struggling to breathe and just live without dreading the worst, let me tell you … “the torture won’t last long. It will be over before you know it. But if you still haven’t caught your sails and changed your directions, then life will. There will be this moment when you will feel like your dead, or you’ve lost the battle. The moment you will finally give up of holding onto whatever that you are enduring. The moment when you don’t have to agree or disagree with your heart and mind. Because they both are in sync again. The moment when you are REBORN. You are awakened. You have just restarted your life engine.  11008325_782718461815568_908617588_n And Oh! what a joy indeed this is. No longer silence will depress you. No longer will you be enslaved to agony. no longer will you compromise on your soul’s happiness. It doesn’t matter what they say : very often you will hear- “Look at you, you have changed. ”  I wouldn’t want to ponder in what sense they say it. Because I know “ I HAVE CHANGED”. A change that touched me like a ray of light. and now I manifest and ask the universe to be kind – and it does. It makes me wanna glow and hold on to the light within me. I love this change. All I want to do now is sing:

I am my sunshine, my only sunshine

I can be happy , when the skies are grey..

You’ll never know dear   – how much I love me,

Oh you can’t take my sunshine away.

yes, you can’t take my sunshine away!”

When you are certain of what you resemble to your own inner self, when you have peace and tranquillity within. When you are in control of what you think and what you feel, When there are no “ifs” any-more to worry about. You have achieved something great and wonderful. What do you think that is?? You have achieved a fine and unique vision for your life. You know what has been and you know that whatever shall be before you , you shall be fine. No storm lasts longer than the time it needs to pass. Everything never is stuck. Its all in motion. Whether we like it or not “Moving forward with time” is how life is. images Rewinding or fast-forwarding life has never been an option. Living in an anti-clock wise timed world isn’t reality. The past is a historic encyclopaedia naturally present like a micro-chip in our brain. Refer to it only when you wish to remember the best moments of your life , and fill your heart with gladness; or refer in-case you need a quick re-understanding of a life lesson learnt. Refer not to it- to wrong your future or compromise with your present. When you have a faith -i.e; strong and encouraging you to live life with a smile, your spirit is in well-being. The very knowledge of what was unbearable, strengthens you further and rejuvenates your entire being . This feeling of being full of life, a breath of sunshine, with smiles for all times, peace and patience in abundance – where living life is like a blessing, waiting for the good is like knowing seasons change and its always wonderful, giving yourself a chance and accepting the way you are without the need of the acceptance of the other. When you are able to “ACCEPT yourself regardless of whatever happened, what will happen or what is happening, and you believe and know that GOD (the universe) has your back. ” You can be anything you wish to be so long you know that it is the best in the vision of the Holy divinity. It needs to be in sync to the things you attract. This is law of attraction in force. Ask and believe you will receive what you ask for, and it will so happen. quote-freedom-is-a-noble-thing-great-happiness-does-freedom-bring-all-solace-to-a-man-it-gives-he-john-barbour-209167 The journey from teenage to adolescence is like a trap full of life lessons. Everyone gets caught in the tangled mess, those who survive have learnt to catch their sails, those who fall prey learn to destroy the sails but very often life gives chances to rebuild what’s broken , rekindle the flame that the storms extinguished, revive your near-dead spirit, let your life engine roar back to life and there you are.. on a journey of living a meaningful life. And when you become all wise, you realise time runs out of hand. And sometimes you wish it would be a little slower, but in vain will that ever happen. So we gotta dash along faster, get hold of what we need and not what we desire and chase the sun and befriend time. Rest whilst we can, find solace in the smaller bits of happiness. Live and enjoy and let your sparkle spread over the horizon. Shine like a light-beacon. Radiate joy through time. It is said:

“Success is failure recycled. Life is death Reborn.”

The mighty pause

DEAR  ME,

It’s been a very long time indeed. I haven’t been myself in this period- I’ll refer to as “the pause of my life.”

It had been a Philippians-4-6-7whirlpool of riotic feelings and pessimistic visions for as long as it lasted.

I am truly glad it’s over. The most difficult time in it all was for me to realise and accept that I had the key to shut it all once and for good. But I took my own time drilling me into an ocean of  desolation and grumpiness.

I took time feeling unworthy, shattered, lost, Carl-Jung-Quote-Even-a-happy-life-cannotand seeing failures and dark pits at every horizon.

They kept telling me ” this ain’t you, wake up. I learnt to be brave from you. I learnt to accept change from you. I learnt to be optimistic from you.  You can’t be this negative. Stop inflicting self pity and torture.”

The words rang deep. But all I felt was hollow. It felt unreal, did I really mean all that? Did I really be someone who I am not now? How did I change? How do I change back? Where do I find the key I misplaced?

Questions and questions.. Never ending ordeal of pessimistic notions.

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So many “Cannots, may nots, Will not, have not, not enough,…. ”

Oh! God save me, It felt like someone was ripping my soul before me to shreds and I stood there dumb, shakened, absorbed in the ruthless moment of misery.

It felt like someone inside me wanted to scream but I just couldn’t break free. I didn’t know how, nor when, nor what.

face-your-own-shaddow-quote-picture-good-life-quotes-pics-600x495It’s just a moment that was all that I needed to snap out of this nightmare.

What a horrifying nightmare indeed!

There’s alot this pause taught me.

Analysing the situation. Analysing my life, me.

Accepting that I can control  the thoughts that  govern my life.  That I will see the good in the bad. That I will be an optimist in the most undesired life situations. That I can go beyond this phase of negativity and lunge into the heaven of good positive vibes.

Things that we lose are things that we dont deserve. Things that we get are beautiful blessons ( blessings+ lessons).

13027247Sometimes it is so difficult to forgive, when you are not asked to forgive. Sometimes it’s so difficult to forget what you forgive. And Sometimes it is so difficult to accept the wrongs you’ve done and to move on. Yet in time, we do it all naturally. Do not force yourself, what has to happen will find a way gradually.

Life never promised that the canvas would remain colourless. When there are colours of warmt and liveliness, everyone feels the joy, but when the canvas gets splayed with dark spots, not everyone is able to appreciate the hidden beauty in it.

Not everyone is able to see the better picture before us.

It takes time to see through what we don’t want to see.

It takes time to accept what we are not ready to.

And it takes time to appreciate what we accept.

There’s a hell lot of difference when we say, we forgive from our heart and keep no grudges, no regrets, no remorse, no crudeness, no hatred. The question is what or whom do we forgive?

The deed and the person are two differentiable things.

When you forgive the deed, you have forgiven the person. You have forgiven yourself. And so to rest you have laid your negative emotions. You have compassion towards you and your fellow beings. You won’t run or escape or ignore what is so tangible and before your eyes. You can face anything, when you have the peace within. This peace gives strength, hope, faith and courage to be more resilient and more welcoming to the endless difficult phases of life.

And when you forgive the person without forgiving the deed. You will never be at peace. You will never be able to be compassionate with yourself.

To reach out to your soul, you need to be at peace- peace that stills away all that is unbalanced and let’s you walk through the doorway to meet your own-inner-self. Only then you feel relaxed and calm.

You need to succumb to no evil pressures but to God ( any Positive source of energy) alone.

You need to be in oneness, with the image of your soul. Only through compassion you can see the reflection of your soul in the acts of your human form.

(what I meant by “Deed” : Deed is that act or moment or notion that you find unforgivable, or that disturbs you internally, or makes you lose your sense of judging reality)

“TAKE IT EASY, BUT DON’T TAKE IT LIGHT.” – these words my brother said to me will always be with me.

Negativity of your thoughts and people takes us nowhere but into worse negative situations..

But positivity will take us a long way, its a slow but the best antidote for a long term life gain..

I failed in my efforts to get my goal, the goal I always wanted. But now because of this pause I am suddenly not so sure, if it still is what I want. I will take my time to find a way in or a way out.

But for the time that I lost, I can’t use the time that I have in wailing and sniffing about it. I need to restucture my way of life, so I know That I will never have to worry about unstable roots again. I need to focus on growing and learning to bloom in spring, to provide shade in summer, to give warmth every winter, to reach out to the sun, to be a shelter to those in need, to absorb the negativity around and give away positive vibes, to plant a tree of hope and self-reliance in everyone who walks by me.

I need to never forget to be ever so grateful, for the arms that reached out to me, the smiles that encouraged me, the love that helped me out a mess I created. Thank you.

And the best thing that the pause gave me is the experience of God. That he never forsakes. That it’s okay to fall, but it’s not okay  to not try to rise after the fall. That I am His Child, born to be victorious. And I have a spirit of life and peace that sets me free from all bondages of evil, sin and darkness.

And here I am resurfacing  from the depths of the unwanted sea of pessimism.

I am the writer of my life, and I will write it till the end.

I will change the course of my ship, when I have to, even if I’m not ready.

I will enjoy the nasty jerks and mild swings of every tide.

I will build my life into something that I will always love.

And I will appreciate the fact that at all times I HAVE ENOUGH.

I will live a life of gratitude.

CHANGE…..

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Times Change… People Change…

Thoughts Change.. Feelings Change… Paths Change…

EVERYTHING CHANGES…

You.. Me…He..She..We..

all change.. CHANGE IS LIFE!

Smiles change to Tears.. Moments to Memories..

Hope changes to Faith… and Understandings To Expectations…

Love to blind Trust..

A fresh green leaf one day withers away..

small babies in time grow old..

WHAT I HAVE NOW , MAY NOT BE MINE TOMORROW..

when time plays games.. Nothing can stop the power of CHANGE.

EVERYDAY, EVERYONE, EVERYTHING,  EVERY MOMENT, changes…

Why nights turn to days??

Why happiness is followed by sorrows??

Things we EXPERIENCE, Things we DO, Things we SAY, Things we LEARN, Things we THINK, Things we FEEL, Things we HOPE, DREAM, WISH ,WANT.... Things we DESIRE

ALL THINGS CHANGE!!!!!!

LIFE CHANGES ….

not because we want it to change, but “BECAUSE THERE’S SOMETHING IT WANTS TO CHANGE IN US”

WE CHANGE…..

not because life wants us to change, but “BECAUSE WE WANT TO CHANGE OUR LIFE”

like a spark of lightening across the darkest sky ,

a ray of hope in the smiles we receive…

signs life gives us,

sometimes we are prepared…. sometimes we aren’t..

CHANGE can be SUDDEN..

CHANGE can be SWEET..

CHANGE can be a PAIN..

CHANGE IS SIMPLY A NEW BEGINNING EVERY TIME WE WISH NO CHANGE…

we can’t avoid change but ACCEPT it… UNDERSTAND it.. GROW with it…

and let it CHANGE us for better…!