The Unknown

Ever felt being lost in a whirlwind of emotions? Being swept away by storms? Feeling this void deep within? Feeling this INDESCRIBABLE emotion whilst letting go of almost everything? This feeling of uncertainty.. the feeling of standing raw and ripped and bared to the flames of the unknown.

3540305242_logo THE UNKNOWN .. what is it? How is it? It creates anxiety.. It creates expectations.. It creates hopefulness and also doubts..

The void brings out an outburst of welcomed and most unwelcomed of all emotions. The mixture of positivity and negativity. And all your left with is to wonder which one shall reign?

I’m in a dilemma.. trying to figure out which battlefield I’m standing on? what am I fighting against? What is all this about?

Its like your suddenly whacked and thrown off your pendulum. You lose your balance and you just keep falling without a landing. And whilst you fall , there’s this torturous wait to know the unknown, to face fears, to realize there’s no choice available here.

Sometimes its beyond our understanding to figure out the deep underlying meaning beneath all the hazy- crazy- messy life.

There are those tough rough hard times where you need to wear a cloak of pretense and show the world that you’re “perfectly fine, not afraid, not confused, not falling apart.” But more than the world, these are the times when you pretend the most with your own-self. You pretend so much and get so habituated that there comes a time when the cloak will become a crucial part of you and no longer be used as a prop.

These are the times when once you’re hit by a ton of bricks, you get all so pessimistic that there’s more of this… Et voila.. there it is , the walls collapsing on you, doors closing on you. The life you created suddenly- just like the sand is gnawed by the waves of the sea- just rips apart. When you get all negative, there’s no limit to what extent of negativity you can reach that can pull you off the cliff you hang on, and take you drowning deep into the unwelcomed ocean of pessimism. And all that happens whilst your trapped in there, is more because of this parasite in your mind , body and soul. The parasite that flicks off any small spark of positivity or hope or courage or anything that could help you out. It makes you believe there’s no way out, when there is. It makes you accept that you cannot break free through the walls threatening and looming over you. You feel diminished by absolute negativity that you begin to see in almost everything. And you begin to accept that this is how it should be and you are fine. Well! You are NOT.

You are thrown out your comfy zone. Now … now.. this is yet another trial.. And you need to use the correct switches available to break out the cuffs and chains that stagnate your growth, that lead you not to positivity.

It’s a matter of choices we need to make. And sometimes we need to be harsher than the harsh. We need to PUSH when being pulled with equal force. We need to realise that the leech or the parasite can be crushed.

Life gives us a fair amount of choices and options. Most that it offers always comes with a switch that we can use to our likings. But many a times we choose to be purposefully unaware. But there are the other  times when you’re not given a choice but there’s something else working for you- unfavourable yet in favour of you- not so likeable yet what is best for you. You can call it any name you want- “Karma”.. “Fate”.. “Destiny” .. “Universe and its energy” … “GOD”..

So long you accept that there’s some energy around you fiddling with your life, that it helps you fix the puzzle or throws at you yet another one. You’ll be able to vaguely see and imagine a bigger picture of what all this is leading you to. It’s a step at a time. Small bits falling together.

Where’s the beauty if life had to be comfy and cozy and nicy-dicy all the time? Where’s the exhilarating adventure without another turn, twist or a toss?

Where’s the fun without fears , provocation, storms and THE UNKNOWN?

The unknown is better. Knowing everything wouldn’t help us in anyway. Not knowing helps uIMG_125690279402377s to master the art to KNOW.

The unknown is filled with blessons (blessings & lessons). Enjoy the ride with all the topsy turvy roads at your disposal.

Again I’d repeat …. “YOU CONTROL YOUR LIFE, Not the other way round. Yes , there is the inevitable, But the evitable will be based on the choices you make,”

Sometimes it’s all like MAKE-BELIEVE. There’s no other artist who will paint your life best for you. BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ULTIMATE UNIQUE ARTIST OF YOUR OWN . PAINT IT. LIVE IT . LOVE IT.

THERE IS A CHOICE even when you believe there isn’t. Find it.

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The Letter

Dear ALL-MIGHTY LORD,

Life has got me through many ordeals, and every time I face a new one, I feel smaller and weaker and lost. But each time I turn to you, you never cease to amaze me. For you never forsake.

Unlike the many who promise to be there but never really are. You watch me walk through the battlefield not from afar. And each time you smile and strengthen me with your words.

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When I am afraid and I feel rejected. You say :

“I did not reject you, but chose you. Do not be afraid-I am with you! I am your God- let nothing terrify you! I will make you strong and help you; I will protect you and save you.” Isaiah 41:9-10

When I lose all hope and feel like giving up . You say:

“Fight. Tomorrow I will give you victory.” Judges20:28

“Do not cling to events of the past or dwell on what happened long ago. Watch for the new things I am going to do. It is happening already- You can see it now. I will make a way through the wilderness .” Isaiah 43:18-19

“Stop your crying and wipe away your tears. There is hope for your future. I, the Lord , have spoken.” Jeremiah 31:16-17

When I am wounded, in pain, hurt. Your word heals:

“The Lord will heal the wounds inflicted by his blow.” Isaiah 30:26

“He heals the broken-hearted and bandages their wounds.” Psalms147:3

When I feel lost. You word reminds me:

“God alone knows the way, knows the place where wisdom is found.” Job 28:23

“I am the Lord your God, the one who wants to teach you for your own good and direct you in the way you should go.” Isaiah 48:17

“Every test that you have experienced is the kind that normally comes to people. But God keeps his promise, and he will not allow you to be tested beyond your power to remain firm; at the time you are put to test, He will give you strength to endure it, and so provide you with a way out.” 1 Corinthians 10:13

When I am tempted to believe you have left me to burn. You say:

“Do not be afraid- I will save you. I have called you by your name- YOU ARE MINE. When you pass through deep waters , I will be with you; your troubles will not overwhelm you. When you pass through fire, you will not be burnt; the hard trials that come will not hurt you.” Isaiah 43:1-2

“I will give up whole nations to save your life, because you are precious to me and because I LOVE YOU and give you honour. DO NOT BE AFRAID – I AM WITH YOU.” Isaiah 43:4-5

“Do not let evil defeat you; instead conquer evil with good” Romans 12: 21

When I complain . You say:

“Mustard seed is the smallest of all seeds but when it grows up, it is the biggest of all plants.” Mathew 13:32 You teach of patience and acceptance in times of trials.

“God will put his angels in charge of you, to protect you wherever you go.”Psalms 91:11

When I feel ashamed of all the wrongs I’ve done. I am reminded :

“He knows all that has ever been and all that ever will be; He uncovers the deepest of mysteries. He takes notice of our every thought.” Sirach 42:19-20

“Forgive; and God will forgive you.” Luke6:37

“If you kept a record of our sins, who could escape being condemned? But you forgive us, so that we should stand in awe of you.” Psalms130:4

When I am left with the “why?” hanging around me. I listen to your provoked voice:

“No one should ask why things are as they are, everything in creation has its own purpose.” Sirach 39:21

When I feel incomplete. You word says:

“Nothing the Lord made is incomplete. Everything completes the goodness of something else.”Sirach 42:25

When I am in need of strength. I say:

“ I have the strength to face all conditions by the power that CHRIST gives me.” Phillippians 4:13

When I think of all the miracles you do and be hopeful. You say:

If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”Mathew 21:22

“Ask, and you will receive; seek, and you will find; Knock, and the door shall be opened.”Luke 11:9

When your word advices me. I try to pay attention:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know. Remember the Lord in everything you do, and he will show you the right way. If you obey the Lord, it will be like good medicine healing your wounds and easing your pains. When the Lord corrects you, pay attention and take it as a warning. The Lord corrects those he loves, just as a father corrects his son. Hold on to your wisdom and insight. They will provide you with life. Whenever you possibly can, do good to those who need it.” Proverbs 3:5-27

There are times when I feel. I am not enough. I am not worthy. I won’t be able. But you always prove me wrong. You give me the push I need. You make me knock on doors that I would think would never open for me. But you always surprise me with your mercy and Love and acceptance.

I feel unworthy Lord, of your unconditional love. Because I fail to believe your presence in the most agonising situations. BUT YOU ARE THERE.YOU ALWAYS ARE.

“Can a woman forget her own baby and not love the child she bore? Even if a mother should forget her child, I will never forget you. I have carved you on the palm of my hand.” Isaiah 49:15-16

There’s so much your words tell me. There’s so much wisdom you give. This BOOK of love you gave me is a reminder of How blest I am to be your child; OF HOW MUCH LOVE I HAVE WHEN I HAVE YOU BESIDE ME, IN ME, WITH ME.

It will always be less, what all I’ve written here. Because just like your LOVE , YOUR WORD is eternal.

It nourishes me in a way that no worldly thing can. I DO NOT WISH TO BE GREAT FOR THE WORLD. But I WISH TO BE SOMETHING FOR YOU.Names of God

I know you value me beyond anything. And yet I want to add more value to me, your creation, in a way you have already chosen for me.

Let me be humble, and let my faith burn and spread the warmth of your Love to all those who need to know THAT YOU ARE WORTHY OF EVERY PRAISE.

“You, Oh Lord, is all I have, and so I put my hope in you.” Lamentations 3:24

All glory and honour to you.

AMEN. HALLELUIAH.

THANK YOU JESUS.

-Your child forever.

That’s how I want my Canvas…

And when I see it turning grey,

I look around for brighter shades,

Not soon I find the red I want,

But I keep searching , not wanting the black to haunt.

 

As soon as I find the colour pots,

I want them all to mess the grey spots,

Hide the black, fill all gaps,

Re-design my life map.

 

Oh Canvas! Oh Canvas! I want you all bright.

But if you’d show me my life,

Shouldn’t you be alike?

 

And thus, I add back the grey,

and alil of black,

And there’s my canvas

with all colours intack.

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Take a step ahead.

Before you start I don’t have this and that.

Your tomorrow will never come.. You need to Stop complaining.. Stop looking for what is less and more and this and that..Stop thinking so much..
Just do it..

PAINT YOUR CANVAS JUST THE WAY YOU LOVE IT BEST.

… Remember you can’t buy the time that goes by..
Do something with your passion..

Create your opportunities rather than waiting for things to come your way or happen the way you want..

WAITING is wrong.. Your talent and capabilities are your weapon.

Be wise and use it.

Inspiration is a feeling that drives you to be a happy satisfied being.

We all need it. It adds friction or should I say fluidity to our movements in life.

Life needs to be lived in an artistic way. Live in the colours, flow in your passion, strike out and design and keep redesigning till you see the picture your mind weaves.

Our palettes are always so full, yet we complain for shades we desire not once giving a thought to what is there is actually what we deserve. We let it dry. And then we wail.

Why?

Why is it tough to appreciate what is around us, in us and within our reach?

We know we shouldn’t be looking at shut doors but we still fail to see the doors that are open and slowly closing without our knowledge.

We know what is right and what is wrong.

We know it. But the problem is WE DON’T ACT. We don’t take a step. We are too damn busy trying to figure out the meaning of our neighbour’s canvas rather than glancing at our own.

No-one will solve your problems for you. Not even GOD. Because you are given them, to learn, to grow, to embrace your fears, to become more than what you are.

Accept your palette and paint your life. Sketch it, imagine it, feel it, dream it, and finally just get yourself together and throw your colours across. Design and keep redesigning your life canvas.

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Small things I feel that can give peace:

  • Don’t be a critic. But be an appreciator.
  • Don’t be proud. But be humble.
  • Don’t ask questions. But be an answer to the unanswered.
  • Don’t feel accomplished. But be hungry to grow above everything.
  • Don’t quit. Every end is a new beginning.
  • Don’t feel sorry. But learn to never repeat a mistake.
  • Don’t hesitate. But speak politely.
  • Don’t just hear. Listen.
  • Don’t expect. But be cautious.
  • Don’t imprison yourself. But always find a way to set free.
  • Don’t command obedience. But ignite the flame of inspiration.

I can go on. But the ultimate key to peace is GOD– the other name for Eternal love.

HE can help you design the most exquisite canvas.

WITIWIB

There’s this concept or mantra I learn’t from my boss.. Of being a WYSIWYG person “WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU GET”... Surely in some of my write-ups you’ll know that I’m more a person dwelling on thoughts and feelings..

So for me its my own concept along the similar lines .. Let me say..

WITIWIB

  I’m more a WITIWIB person..i.e; I believe:  “WHAT I THINK IS WHAT I BECOME.”

Hadn’t I come across WYSIWYG I’d not have identified me as a WITIWIB.

What is WITIWIB?

Since its something I conclude my personality as. Let me get a little theoretical.

The basic principle I’ve come to believe on my journey and all through my experience, so far, is that

“I AM THE PRODUCT OF MY THOUGHTS.”

I reflect on the past and realize that it is the energy of my thoughts that have helped or pushed me through all the situations that they have attracted.

Yes, ironical but true. Every thought releases some energy in the universe, let me be precise and say rather ‘around me’.

And these thoughts govern my life.

So the quality of my thoughts will be portrayed in the quality of my life.

If I’m optimistic, patient and a girl in her goody-two shoes, okay maybe not all the time! Then it’s fair enough my life is pretty comfortable.

If I’m a pessimist, indulging in self torture, bad stuff and everything in that pot, then complaining that my life’s unfair ? Is it even my right??

Everyone has their own mantras in life. We just need to discover which one suits us. I just found mine and honestly, it works best for me. What about you?

Introspect yourself. Listen to some optimistic experienced personalities. They have something to give you, teach you, every step along the way.

We learn so much, at every stage. It’s more of becoming human than being human.

It’s finding what helps you grow better, faster and also knowing what stagnates your growth.

As we learn and unlearn, we keep growing to becoming better and there’s this understanding that only experience can offer and no book can, sometimes.

So I’ll be trying to be a better WITIWIB, accepting and adapting and growing optimistic.

As it suggests- “WIT” – I think we possess a brain that can differentiate between positive and negative thoughts and also witty and unproductive or say abusive thoughts. What are you like? Have you thought about it?

WITIWIB can go a long way, framing your personality. Boosting your confidence and helping you challenge your being to strive to better yourself from every perspective.

So, finally it’s you making a choice.

Great you think, Great you become.

Good you think, Good you become.

Holy you think, Holy you become.

Evil you think, Evil you become.

Out of the box you think, And you’re definitely NOT TO SIT IN ONE.

Positive you think, An Optimist you become.

It all sums up to the very roots of being a WITIWIB:

WHAT YOU THINK, IS WHAT YOU BECOME.

So Choose to THINK extraordinary, raise your thoughts to an unbiased level, and control their direction.

Because if you want to become something, Then YOU DEFINITELY need to decide the train of your thoughts.

Use your Witty thoughts… weave your personality.

Bitter-sweet moments.

  IMG_213975697623218It’s only when you start working you realise how cruel the world can be!

“Do I have it in me to make it my own?”

Change What you can, move past what you can’t.

Simple rule.

ADAPT and get yourself tuned to the music of reality.

Had started this journey  with a goal in mind
Met people  so cruel, so unkind!
….not all was good, not all was bad….
Have so much to worry, so much to be sad..
I’d often  question,” where  did it all go?”
The fun, the frolic, those laughing rows.
It was all so merry, so peaceful ,  so light.
To have friends around you day and night.

Walking this alien road,
I see so much has changed.
Lines have grown  on my forehead. Oh what strains!
How much I wish  I could  go back in time,  and live some  more.
But this is reality.  No wonder  life’s  painfully  slow.

Why do I feel it a burden?
IMG_214494818065520Can’t I make it a jolly ride?
If I have it in me! Time  will decide.

Alas! Too long have I forgotten  the goal I so wanted.
It’s time I get over these annoying  tangles, and see that my focus  doesn’t get tainted.

It’s still a journey. One I ought to live.
Let me learn to love it.
Let me be at ease.
I can. Can’t  I?
If I want to, won’t  I?
I will, will I not?

Move on,  past the things making me hold on to grudges.
I will atune myself  to the new music  of my reality.

Days tumble into night, and I wonder when will I get that break?

Always trying to make me feel lighter, no matter how much I get bit by snakes.

It’s not crude. It’s just the bitter side.

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Sometimes life’s just a beautiful messy ride.

Fear Can’t Control “ME”

I’m nervous, I’m scared,

What should I do?

All I can see is red!

Should I run? Should I face?

Should I let my fear- me embrace?

Must I swallow it down? with a frown I think…

Will it matter? If I ran?

But what if I choose to hold firm? will I earn any grand?

What do I lose? What shall I gain?

Chaotic thoughts! Leave no grudges down this lane.

Fear is something that lives within each one of us. It may be in the form of insecurity, fear of loneliness, fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of betrayal, fear of loss, fear of all negativity turning into reality, fear of feeling unwanted, fear of darkness, fear of the harshness of truth, fear of seeing you own reflections, fear of the mask you imagine people wear, fear of death, fear of heartbreak, fear of having no reasons to smile or laugh or love or be happy……. fear is something that many can hide beneath their brave facades but it is something that never leaves us , no matter how much we boast about conquering it.

NEVER FEAR- FEAR ITSELF.

It’s there, like a shadow. Face the sun, and it will fall past you.

Everything is in our hands. How we conquer it? How we try facing it? How we believe it can’t possess us without our permission!

We have the ability to fear our fears but what’s more sensible is accepting the ability to refuse adamantly to give in to these fears that shadow our path of light with darkness.

We all are like the sun, with so much light to brighten our life and also that of all around. We have it within us. The power to shine. The power to be a lighthouse that can glow even when the lights low.

We have in us the ability to do everything that can revive us, rejuvenate us , refresh us and rebuild us to out-grow our weaknesses, to overcome all grudges, to give in to the magic of positivity.

ecfffeee494042e13df8ff5d03199215Fear is more a mind game. It’s your mind. You can control. YOU CAN WIN. CHOOSE.

Believe:

YOU CAN. YOU WILL. YOU HAVE TO.

Practice the art of loving yourself with all the fears that run deep. Love yourself so much that you will fight to not give in to your fears. No nightmare will be worse than running away from your fears. Be passionate to live without anything holding you back. Keep moving forward.

Face them. Draw strength from the one thing that gives you boundless power. Remember that one thing in you weakest hours. Be humble to accept you are weak. But be courageous to overcome and out-shadow what you can put behind you. Build the shield around you that no sword can break.

Bravery is an act. Strength is the power. Your Will is the key.

Master the art of taming your fears.

Reach out within. All answers lie there. Deep buried under the linen of fear. Bring it forth. And lay beneath to rest in peace all that you can do better without .

The FOUR Ps.

– PURPOSE– PASSION – PERSEVERANCE – PATIENCE–

To walk down a road, we need to know the destination. What is it that the road we choose may lead us to?

Finding the meaning of your breath , of why you’re even alive! That’s purpose.

We aren’t totally aware of this purpose at any point of time in our entire life. Sometimes it’s as vivid as the day, sometimes it’s as dark and blurry as the night.

There’s got to be something that evokes in us a PASSION .i.e; completely undefined, something that drives us crazy enough to face all storm-winds to reach right there where we feel complete, where one purpose ends and another begins.

All we need is a small push. A channel that leads us step by step, road by road, closer and nearer to a finer purpose to live life.

Name it what you want…. goal, dream, aim, target, object, destination… anything at all. It all sums up to one thing “PURPOSE”.

A purpose that ignites the flame of passion to achieve through perseverance is what we all sought in life.

Purpose can be anything, be it small or big, upon fulfilment it gives us the same thing- satisfaction. It only grows stronger with every step we take in life. It becomes clearer as we start to understand life. It’s a growing hunger to live up-to what we are capable of.

Patience – the power of endurance. The key to be persistent enough to reach the pinnacle of our very existence.

Inside us lies a burning desire that can be kept hidden for years but one can never forget.

Everyone has at least once questioned “what purpose have I come to serve through this gift of life?”

And one of the many answers would be :

Purpose to live will never be self-destruction. And by choosing evil we do nothing else but that. And by evil I mean everything. Be it anger, hatred, violence, vices, utterance of foul words, inflicting hurt, falling prey to temptations, being judgmental, greedy, selfish, lamenting, complaining, blaming, …….and so forth.

When you open your eyes, and watch the world, observe the pain etched in every face.

There should be a part of you that wants to reach out.

To spread one smile everyday , to do good where good can be done, to leave the bad when your purpose has just begun.

To know that the climb will be painful, and you will fall no matter how much you try to be cautious. To become stronger and determined to persevere.

To believe in oneself and be persistent to fulfill the purpose.

To be passionate about the journey and foresee the hurdles and be prepared.

Life is an adventure. It’s not a jolly ride always. There are gonna be moments when you’ll hang upside down or you’ll be throw for a toss. Play you best move.

And never forget the purpose,

your inner strength- the passion,

your armour – perseverance and persistence,

your sword – patience.

Words. Some false. Some harshly true. – Let it cast a magical spell. Over me and you..!!

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