When Faith talks #1

Faith defines a huge part of my existence.
I don’t think I’d recognize me without Him and His abundant blessings.
Jesus is not only my friend, my King, my comforter, my healer, my help, my refuge, my hope, my faith, my courage, my victory, questions & answers… Jesus has come to mean everything to me.
No I don’t go to Him in adversities alone, I’m not that much of a hypocrite. I kinda talk to Him everyday. Prayer is a beautiful tool to seek His presence.
And honestly the way His word (bible) always answers me is amazing.
I am not that girl who would bury her Faith so as to fit in with a sassy group of people who probably mock it and still say they are believers. I know Jesus , and knowing Him just alil has told me that there is so much more to Him that I am simply unaware of.
It is so beautiful to see non believers, come to Churches and Chapels and sit in silence, sometimes praying , sometimes hoping, sometimes just blindly staring. I long to know what they feel, what they experience, what they come there for? For a photograph? For the archaeological structures? For some answers, for peace ? For miracles? Statues?
I don’t know. But what really makes me smile is that most often, when they walk out, they have a smile, they have this peace , a serenity unexplainable.
Sometimes we Christians are so ungrateful and blind to see and learn more about Jesus and How His ways are beyond earthly understandings.
I’m not a preacher. But I hope you’ll know how to cherish your bible, how to study it, and how to talk to Jesus, not only when you need Him (in adversaries) but need Him in all times.

I won’t be that person who will wish you on every feast , every saints day and all that, and I’m sorry if I haven’t reverted back to some who indeed wished me, while that might be alil lacking in my faith, I just somehow am keen to only focus on Him, everything related to Him is a feast that I love to celebrate, whether Christmas, Easter…
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People with faith are not blind as people with none choose to think , For we simply choose to believe in something that you can’t bring yourself to believe in.

P.s. the background art pic is from #Pinterest

The quote is mine.

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What is it about Falling ?

While falling has always been looked upon as an act of downfall or shame or mockery, there are these invisible falls that people have time & again, and I want you, who understands what I mean right here, to know even when you physically fall, even if no one helps you or holds you back, and even if the ground hurts and bruises you or you might have had a much major critical impact, just remember to be grateful for alil while when you can, because it held you, it embraced you and it took all the curses for all your bruises.
It was hurt too, the impact is never one sided, there will always be a two dimensional impact when energy strikes.
Similarly, in your subconscious falls, your soul will always hold you. Recognize your inner ground & be grateful that you have a home within you.
Sometimes what I write is not for everyone to make sense & I get that. Some even think I’m crazy & my writings are musings of madness. Thanks that some make it known to me that I can be figuratively a topic of your humor. But I want you, if you are reading this , to know there is more than just one out there who has found alil peace and connection reading just what I wrote. And that for me is more than enough. Nothing is gibberish. Everything has meaning. And no one has to live life as per opinions and expectations of someone else . Live life as you wish & feel it like.
Drown in your own madness, for its not misery , it’s a search for something deeper, something immaterial, something stronger & firmer & surreal.
Life is not alone about jobs & money making, it’s more about love, discovering, finding, gratitude & adventures of hopeful crazy.

Remember :
And still the earth accepts our falls,
welcoming the impacts.
They say pain makes you hard & cold.
If you don’t believe in surreal, supernatural & the magic of the universe, then you certainly aren’t a believer of blessings & God & his mighty plans.

Alil about Love.

Love does not happen only once, that’s just a notion , inscribed forcefully on our brain, by believers around the world.

Love happens and that is beautiful, it is not controlled or forced, and it even makes you blind to the flaws of people you fall for, you tend to overlook their scars and vices, because you plainly simply love loving them.

And when sometimes things don’t get far as forever and ever or really end in happily ever afyers, you need to get out of the shell of remorse and grief and feeling hopeless and downcast. You need to stop blaming yourself for being blind and purposely ignorant of all the vices that now are screaming at you and making you regret your choices.

You are at this phase called, a chapter has ended, and like all, I am in pain and I should wallow there and rethink all my decisions and actions and blah. Stop reassessing the past. That’s gonna make you gloomy. You will fail to see the right reasons it was right at the time you stood in compared to all the wrong reasons you are so deliriously aware in the now . The times are different, the chapters you are living are different, and the you – you were and are , are having a huge gap of process learning change.

Because quite honestly, only after the move on thing, you’ll know that love is not forced, love does not envy and love is boundless. And sometimes you live this boundless abundance of love in fractional inches in a few chapters of learning and living , until you find a foundation of becoming a homemaker and investing you into building just that. Reaching this point is sometimes chance, sometimes a choice and mostly fate. Some want it , while some don’t and still there are other’s who are confused with the pictures weaved on what to expect and what would rather become of them.

Bible scriptures : 1 Corinthians 13:

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

See, we can love once or twice and fall apart. But it does not actually break our heart or us completely , only to the extent we allow. But once we realize this, we are at a better place of understanding, you can love again, feel attracted again and you’ll definitely perhaps find violins n flutes playing in your head as your emotions dance jazz and again feel your soul crushing. If you are compassionate and as open to receiving love as you are to giving love away, this will happen tons of times, until you know the value of what love is when you have it and when you lose and believe that love is what you will receive when love is what you give and so God will bless you with THE love that will make you stop hoping and waiting and pinning and wailing, because then that love will be the faith alive in you, a breathtakingly beautiful one, perhaps.

I do believe in happily ever afters and I know I will find mine, I am a firm believer in love eternity and I am also aware of the stakes and hiccups that life’s tantrums will throw , that some of which I won’t know how to deal with but time will be my teacher, and so all I’ll need is love in me, like a burning fuel to keep me going, always. It is like an anecdote to calmness and peace and belonging.

Do you remember the vows of marriage:

“In sickness n health, in good times and bad”

If we can vow our fidelity to one person for the remainder of our existence, and learn and grow through the journey,

Then don’t you think God has vowed to be with us always, to love and cherish us and be with us, mould us, give us what we need, bless us, lead us on paths he chose, make way for us where there are no ways, let us walk on raging waters, protect us from burning fires ? He married us even before we asked Him to be with us, and he has vowed to be the Lover of our soul and the Keeper of our hearts, the Source of our lives and to Love abundantly.

I dont want a story, that I plan anymore.

I want a story He plans.

Because in the end , He is the best story writer.

Also read : Sirach 42:18-25.

Sirach 42:24 All things are in pairs, each the opposite of the other, but nothing the Lord made is incomplete .

#17 Her thoughts

Anxiety is that negative swirl of emotions that consumes you when you overthink and panic and feel that control has slipped through your grasps.

It’s more of a brain issue than of heart.

Your life is also your baby, you need to tend to it, tantrums and all, you need to feed it good, and nurture and harness it. Do well with what you hold, because what you do hold is dear life.

Someday I hope I’m even more well versed with human psychology and science of understanding emotions, thoughts and the process of reaching mindfulness.
I hope I can depart more of wondrous words and art , before I do depart;
It’s a long term goal.
Because being a writer and artist by heart, was never a choice, it is what chose me, it is Me.

But being anything else professionally will be something I choose, and I hope I’m able to decide on that route well , no matter how late or early.

Me as an Empath.

Somehow there’s more than just hope now, there’s a sense of going happily crazy discovering who I am, what are my limits & understanding the deeper purpose of my existence. And Somehow I just so damn well know.. “THERE’S MORE TO ME , THAN I CAN SEE OR I AM STARING TOO LONG AT, BUT WHAT AM I LOOKING AT & WHAT SHOULD I LOOK FOR ? ”

You can fool yourself to feel miserable and utterly overjoyed over perpetual reasons which are mind made up traps of playing the victim or just a veil darned for pretence of forcing you and all around of what an incredibly happy bird you are, you can always chirp , chirp & chirp, every season.

Sometimes we need the quiet (meditation) to realise if what we are and where we are is realistic or forced pretentious bubbles of non acceptance of reality subconsciously.

Stubbornness cannot be controlled unless you know what are you truly stubborn about, do you know ?

No! I DON’T PITY YOU. ON THE CONTRARY, I RESPECT YOU.
Pain is such a beautiful thing to happen to us, it makes you wiser .
A life with none would do you no good,
but again there is just no life with none of it.

It will touch you,a tiny sliver enough to cut a gash too deep. Just enough to give you a good tough shipwreck.
Hello there sailor, panic isn’t an option.
And I won’t ask you to be brave either,
do what you must, if you haven’t learn’t to deal with adversaries before you are hit than adversaries will teach you how to deal with it.

And remember nothing happens to you without it having a wonderful defining meaning to your life. The good, the bad, all alike.

You can lose what you dont expect to and gain what you don’t intend to, and yet , I want you to halt there AFTER a good healthy grieving , to look out for the other side of the coin you are so stubborn to not give a looking.

I see you , wanting help but not really asking, I see wanting to help and not knowing how, may my words reach you :
“YOU are beautiful, amazing and a vibrant soul. Your pain is defining you. The furnace will burn you. But it will also mould you. Don’t give up thinking it’s the end, smile , because there’s just a new journey right there, waiting for you to turn and take a chance and plunge into another breathtaking adventure. Life will give you all the colors you’ll need, and no one will paint your masterpiece so refulgent, than you, yes you, you alone. ”

We often hear people telling us, “let your pain and failures not define you”.
But I want to tell you,
” Let it define you, let it mould you, and may you find the courage to see how uplifting it is for it’s true worth. Do not go by what the world claims, it calls pain trash and failures setbacks & crap, but no, it is so much more than just a mere rock, inside of which is the most purely formed and distinctively created jewel.”

Gentle voice of mine.

Well sometimes we are faced with both the voice, one that snaps at any progress and makes us believe it’s still less,
and one that pushes us with a gentle voice forward and reminds us each tiny lil step counts.
While you’ll need the harsher one to give you a taste of reality and be your own fair judge, and mentally make plans on how to approach the situation, with worst case scenario and best possible strategies .
There will also be that voice that will tell you to calm down and breathe and take one day at a time. And this is the voice that you need to prioritize.

Often with the lifestyle we are so engaged in, this voice is like a tiny freckle in the space around us, most often it’s the “not good enough” blowing away the hidden sips of joys that breeze through your way.
Take time to understand and to listen to both of them, and then pay more attention to the one that is more gentle on you.
Because through the narrow gentlest stream gushes the most pure, ferocious and magnificent river.

All that snapping and negative motivation will sometimes be alil too harsh on those already wearing out nerves, learn the art of mindfulness. That life is right where you are, breathe it. Don’t chase it, because it’s not something you chase , it’s something you absorb, something you cherish , something you observe and feel and live.

Stay blest.

Faith – the way to what you are looking for.

Scriptures to reflect on :

John 11:40 Then Jesus said, “Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”

Mark 11:24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

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They lost a key this morning , and her mom was all crazy and worried and anxious and already thinking of situations that how bad things could turn out because of this, she even started looking at strangers as suspects or should I say potential thieves? Also blaming God in the process and bringing up all the other hardships and questioning Him as to how much more had they to endure. Alice did reprimand her mom to not drag God into this, that they can’t blame Him for all petty things, have some more faith, they’ll find it.

Somehow Alice was so peaceful , even though she did help her mom and dad look around for it. They searched every possible corner but couldn’t find it. They kept looking and in it all Alice kept her peace , calm and faith.

Alice came back in after looking through the garden , it was a hot morning and her gut had a strong feeling that they would find it. She smiled as she looked at Jesus on her altar and heard her mom’s overly anxious thoughts and spoke in her mind, “Jesus, I know you are here and you are smiling just like me, and I also know you’ll help us find it before this day ends. Somehow I just know this. Why else would I feel at peace and not be a worrywart like mom then ? ”

They hadn’t had breakfast and knowing her mom, Alice knew better than to ask her to sit down and have breakfast. She sat herself down at the table and helped herself, watching her mom hustle around , hoping she wouldn’t flip seeing that she was sitting there all calm without a worry. It was an important key after-all.

Meanwhile, her dad had gone back on the path he had gone early this morning to run a few errands and guess what ?

He found the key sitting proudly at a stop he had had this morning.

Lucky him ? Or Amazing faith?

Alice thanked God in her rejoicing heart and had a smug smile as she looked right at her mom while she exclaimed , “Praise you Jesus!”.

Her mom was indeed alil stunned. She did try hiding the obvious though.

Isn’t it so extremely beautiful when you are so certain that God will lead you to the one thing you are earnestly looking for and that is exactly what you find waiting for you, like it was just meant to happen ?

Alice had faith , peace and the power of the Holy spirit in her. It was like she was casually conversing with Jesus, like this was all their naughty plan to create alil hustle in the calm. Alice did not ask God to help find the lost key. Alice knew that Jesus would lead them to it, so sure that she knew it was before the day ends . Much better, they found it the same morning, a matter of a few hours.

What a peculiar faith ?

She did not order God or gave him a set of instructions on how she wants things or when and where should the key be found. She simply said , ‘Jesus I know this is your doing, and I know you’ll show us the way. You will give us what we are looking for.’

In His time, Jesus not only did exactly what He would, but He also made His time inclined with Her’s.

Aren’t we all Alice’s mom most often ? Worrying way too much and taking off our frustrations on the people around ? Blaming God because we often can’t find what we are looking for ? Remembering all the bad things, listing them up and questioning the King of Glory of what do we glorify Him about? Sometimes we know what we are looking for and sometimes we don’t, but we are so involved in the what ifs, why not, how, what , when , where, why – that we fail to acknowledge the mastermind planning the hustle.

He stands patiently beside us and wait for us to become Alice. To remain calm and peaceful, and that can only happen when we can have a faith like her. A faith that is strong enough to be unbelievably brave in the storms and chaos and to know that there is everything good about the storm, the best is to have Jesus beside us, to realize the storm is not really a storm but our humane brain weaving a trap that is eroding our peace.

He waits patiently for us to become like Alice and talk to Him; To show confidence in Him rather than blaming and bringing up all the adversities that actually helped us to be where we are; To not forget the good that we reaped in the bad; To not ask Him for help but to accept the fact that He will help us regardless we ask for help or not if only we have more faith in Him than our situations.

He waits for us to acknowledge that it is not the situation that should rule our mind but our faith that should lead us through our mindtraps and rough patches.

And He also smiles and waits for us to have a heart of gratitude in it all.

How beautiful is the faith of Alice? Alice knew losing the key would be really a bad thing to happen, and while her mom’s worry was reasonable, what was unreasonable was that her mom let her worry make her see innocent people as potential thieves, much worse she relived all the past anxieties and fears and had not yet realised what greater blessings God had given them, she knew about them, yet in such times, her mom failed to weigh that their blessings were so much more profound, cherishable and generously given.

Alice knew all this. And even though she was the child, she was in a better place to understand How great and magnificent are the ways in which our Lord works.

Age does not count to confirm the intensity of one’s faith, a child may have a faith that is brighter and fiercer than that of an experienced older person.

Reach a state of calm like Alice, whether you lose a key or something or someone, whether you are waiting for someone or something, know in your heart that Jesus will lead you to it. Infact, be certain He is already leading you to it. Don’t stop looking. Don’t stop believing. And start talking to Him. He is listening and waiting to talk to us.

We all know this scripture that says, “Faith in God can move mountains ” , well we won’t need Him to move mountains for us, maybe a small stone, but often we’ll make these small stones seem like humongous godzilla’s chasing our leftover peace, sounds funny right ? But it does become gravely seriously when you are living in a situation like so. The situation can be assumed to be overwhelming as we let our mind weave a web about it’s enormity, half the problem is actually not even real, 98% of our worry we can do without, they are just our fears and anxiety resurfacing at the forefront wanting attention, and most often we give in. Try not. How ? Work on that faith sweets, Read His word, accept it and let it live in you.

Just imagine Him sitting beside you with a smile, in every situation, imagine Him stand by you and feel that sense of privilege that you know He is just there and only you can see Him with your eyes of faith, but the person before you can’t. Let this be your thing, like He is invisible to the world you interact with but very visible to your heart and mind and soul. And may be you could even let some know of His presence and how wonderful He is and let them too, have a secret friend at their side at all times ?

Sometimes we need to sit calm, and think how would Jesus want us to feel in a situation like so, ask Him if you want, ask aloud , what would He expect us to do ? And mind you , you will always find the answer almost clashing with the way you’d be feeling or thinking. And if there seem to be no clashes, you will have found the calm and peace you’ll have when there is faith radiating in your breath. You will not question Him then because you will automatically think and feel like He wants you to.

Stay vibrant in Jesus. Bless you. Bless sweet Alice and her mom and their family. And bless you all in your journey of finding your peace.

Words. Some false. Some harshly true. – Let it cast a magical spell. Over me and you..!!

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